Unborn children (from spiritual psychology). Where do babies who die in the womb go?

Prologue

From 6 to 7 January, the most festive night for the entire Orthodox world, Katya was holding her newborn daughter, Mashenka, in her arms. In the ward, where all the women in labor were already asleep, and their babies were peacefully snoring - after doing the first and most main way in life - from her mother's tummies to the white light, Catherine spent the first hours with her long-awaited, so long-awaited, so desired baby.

She sat, not letting go of her, as if afraid that Mashenka (as she called her pride) would suddenly disappear. In the light of the lantern shining in the hospital window, Katya looked with affection at her tiny face, small nose, cheeks, closed eyes with beautiful long eyelashes, sponges, everything seemed so perfect. "I was waiting for you for so long!",- holding back tears, whispered happy mom. And lifting her eyes up, she mentally said, - "Thank you !!!"to the one whom she accused, and cursed, and asked, and thanked all these years. Pictures of the years lived, the trials passed, the stories of despair and humility ran before her eyes. All this, now, when on her hands, the most important gift presented by fate was snoring, it seemed not an accident. Now everything she had experienced was being revealed in a different light - like the road she had been taken to make her stronger, wiser and more tolerant. But the most important gift that she received with her baby was the ability to appreciate such a gift from heaven as the birth of a Child.

Svetochka

Katyushka grew up as an obedient and sweet girl, making her mom and dad happy. After graduating from school, she left for another city, entered the institute, after which she returned to her parents. I met my one and only - Slava, got married.

Everything was going well - she and her husband bought an apartment, Katya had an interesting and well-paid job, with the prospect of career growth. Relations between the young were developing perfectly, it seemed they were simply made for each other. They always had many friends in their house, in the summer they preferred outdoor activities - they rafted along the rivers, climbed the mountains. Life was interesting, but at the same time it did not bring any unpleasant surprises.

Having lived together for 3 years, the young couple began to think, as it should be about children. Katerina would have made an excellent mother, she was calm and very kind, no one had ever seen her irritated or angry. It seemed to such a woman that fate was simply written to become a wonderful mother.

Katya spent hours talking with the baby, repeating how she was waiting and loving her. Together they went to swim in the pool, listened to classics and children's stories. Observing her friends who had children, she noted that since Lena, she would not talk to her baby, she would not punish the way Tanya did, she was not going to celebrate birthdays the way Oksana did. Even on the street watching mothers with children, she always knew what she would not be - especially if a scene with a roar or punishment unfolded in front of her eyes. Although the belly was not yet noticeable, all the acquaintances immediately understood, although they did not show the appearance that Catherine was pregnant. She radiated such light and tranquility, her face was so spiritual and happy that there was no doubt.

At 12 weeks old, Katyusha and her husband went to the first ultrasound scan. It's one thing to imagine that a little man is growing in your belly, it's another to see it with your own eyes. It is so surprising that the strawberry-sized "button" already had legs, arms and even fingers, a heart was pounding. Katka even burst into tears, it turned out to be so exciting to see her little MIRACLE floating inside her. The doctor assured that everything is normal, the fetus is developing, according to the development schedule and there are no pathologies. The word - fruit, somehow even cut Katya's ear - for her it was not a fruit, it was her little princess, her Svetochka.On the way home, the happy parents bought a cake and in the evening over tea they just discussed what legs and what hands their baby had, and how smart their little Svetochka was.

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At night, Katya woke up from a dull aching pain in the lower abdomen, woke up her husband. Slava called an ambulance and tried to calm his wife. Katya, however, could not find a place for herself, such fear rolled over her in waves that her heart began to pound quickly, quickly. She grabbed the printed prayers for pregnant women from the table and began to read them without stopping. Arrived ambulanceKatya was taken to the hospital, and Slava, unable to find a place for himself, followed.

Already in the hospital, Katerina had a miscarriage, she was cleaned and left until morning. Whether walking away from anesthesia, or in a dream, Katya saw a little girl walking up the road somewhere, turning, and smiling, waving her hand. The next morning, Katya woke up in the ward, where three women were lying in custody, they all looked at her sympathetically, saying some words to her. But she, turning to the wall, cried, mourning her unborn girl, whom she would never braid, never wear nice dresswho will never sing a lullaby. Katya felt such pain and emptiness that it seemed to her that women who sympathized with her were rejoicing in their souls, each thinking at the same time - "Thank God it didn't happen to me."

Katya went to doctors, trying to find out the reasons for the miscarriage, took tests - there was only one answer - "You are doing well, we cannot determine the reason ..."

After talking with her husband, they decided to undergo an examination at a clinic in the capital. Before leaving, Katya, cleaning the apartment, went to her neighbor, grandmother Raya, to give some food.

Raya's grandmother had 5 children and 7 grandchildren, who often came to visit, visited the old woman. She was a very kind and very religious woman. After drinking tea, Raya's grandmother blessed Katya, sympathizing and very sympathetic to this young, cheerful woman. Already leaving, Katya stopped on the threshold and asked: "Raya's grandmother, where do the unborn babies go?" And I told her a dream that I had in the hospital. "Oh, baby, I don't even know, but the priest in our church probably knows."- She answered and began, as always, to talk about the new priest, in which, judging by the stories, the whole flock does not like the soul. Katya politely interrupted the conversation, referring to the preparations.

In an expensive clinic in Moscow, after a full examination and all kinds of tests, the verdict was the same as at home - "Are you fine. But we recommend that you be closely monitored during the next pregnancy. "

Katya and Slava returned, gradually the pain of the loss subsided, life went on as usual. At work, Katya was promoted, everything was going well.

Anya

A year passed, Katya and Slava decided to try one more time. As soon as his wife had a delay, Slava rushed to the pharmacy for tests. Coming out of the toilet, Katya said with tears in her eyes - "Happened!".

Now Katya took care of herself like a porcelain vase. Glory bought her even dishwasher, in order to somehow protect your beloved woman from worries. They waited very excitedly for 12 weeks, with a sinking heart, fearing a repetition. This time Katya did not give a name to her baby, fearing to run ahead.

On the second ultrasound, she was told that she was expecting a girl. Fears were left behind, and Katyusha began to call her little girl Anechka. She looked at women with children, and repeated to herself: "Anechka, I will be your own best mom in the world".

The baby has already begun to move inside, for Katya it was just a miracle, she always froze at these moments, afraid to miss even the slightest push. She learned Anechka's daily routine, tried to go to bed herself when her daughter was sleeping or at rest, so as not to suddenly wake up the baby.

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Everything happened unexpectedly: on the 22nd week, labor began, Katya was hospitalized. With eyes full of horror, she grabbed the doctors by the arms and shouted: “Save my child !!! Save Anya !!! Help my baby !!! "Alas, they could not stop the sudden onset of generic activity. Anya was born a stillborn child.

Katya begged to show her her daughter, but they wrapped her up and carried her away, explaining that she was not supposed to. She was left alone, lying on the delivery table in the delivery room, having not given birth to a child. The nurse, who was cleaning the floor, for some reason opened the window and left, it became very cold, and Katerina felt how this cold penetrates into every part of her soul and heart, freezing her feelings.

The chilling truth that she had lost her second child slowly dawned on her mind. Suddenly, unable to restrain herself any longer, she burst into tears, screamed, out of pain, resentment, self-pity, for Anya, for Slava. She so wanted to become small, to crawl into her mother's arms and hug her, to forget about everything.

Katya was injected with a strong sedative and at night she had the same dream again, her girl, her little Anya, left her forever. Only instead of waving her hand, the girl said: "Please understand!"

Returning from the hospital, Katya did not want to stay at home for a day and went to work. Tactful colleagues tried not to touch on the topic of children at all in her presence. Katya, no matter how hard she tried, could not cope with her pain. She stopped communicating with her friends who had children, switched the TV, if suddenly they showed a nice little kid. Slava saw how his wife was tormented, more than once offered to discuss everything, advised to speak out, cry out, but she only answered him: "You can not understand!"Thus erecting a huge wall between them.

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3 months have passed. One Sunday morning, Raya's grandmother rang at the door, she said to Katherine: "Get dressed, let's go!"Katya dressed and went without asking.

Grandmother took her to church, to the service. Father Michael, the same one that the neighbor constantly talked about, met him at the entrance. He greeted Katya and smiled, and her eyes even stung from the tears that were coming - there was so much warmth and so much love and kindness in the father's eyes that Katyusha's frozen heart responded. She read stories about saints, but here she saw with her own eyes how a person seemed to glow from within.

Throughout the service, Katya was flowing involuntary tears, cleansing her soul, washing away despair and pain. Then, going up to Father Michael, she asked:

- Father, tell me, where do the unborn children go?

- Sinless souls go to Paradise. Become angels, ”he replied and smiled.

The first night after the tragedy, Katya slept sweetly, without nightmares. She began to come to church often - either just to sit, then to light a candle, then to listen to the priest. My soul became calmer. She again went through all the examinations and this time the doctors suggested that the premature birth was probably caused by the weakness of the muscles of the uterus, which did not hold the growing baby.

Tanyusha

Another year passed. Slava and Katya bought a new 3-room apartment and a car. Slava defended his dissertation, Katya was made head of the department. They went to church together every Sunday. Only sometimes, when meeting with couples with wheelchairs, Katya's heart ached. And yet Katerina decided to take the risk.

She often went to church, talked with Father Mikhail.

Everything went great, without pathologies, the baby moved, the X hour approached (the period during which she lost Anya). Father Mikhail said that one must believe - and Katya believed. She was registered in the best clinic, the entire pregnancy took place under the vigilant supervision of doctors. Katya believed when the contractions began again ahead of time, believed that they would certainly help her, believed to the last.

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The baby was born alive, but premature at such a time that no one began to revive her. Katya saw her blond girl dying on the next table within 3 minutes. She screamed, rushed to her, bit the doctors, she fought, scratched like an animal - but realizing that everything was over, she fell into unconsciousness.

And again the vision repeated, for the third time her girl left her, now the baby cried herself, repeating: "You will understand!"

Katya, getting out of the car, ran to the door of the church, ran inside, not seeing anything around, she, pushing the parishioners, rushed to the altar. Running up, she, looking at the icon of the Savior, cried out with all the strength of her lungs so that He would hear:

- WHAT ARE YOU SO WITH ME for ?! WHAT HAVE I DONE SO SCARY THAT YOU PUNISH ME SO? WHY ARE YOU KILLING MY GIRLS? YOU, WHO ARE NOT THINKING, GIVE CHILDREN TO DRUG ADDICTS, THROWING OUT THEIR IMMEDIATELY TO CLEAN !!!

Her husband and father Mikhail ran up to her, they tried to drag her away by force, but Katya struggled, not hearing anything. She turned to the numb people who had come to the service and shouted to them:

- Who are you praying to? From whom do you ask? He plays with us like with dolls, tearing off legs, tearing out hearts !!!

She was nevertheless taken to the priest's room at the church. Katya cried for a long time, whispering: "For what? For what? For what?"

Father Mikhail stroked her head, knowing that any words were useless now. How much grief he saw every day, how much pain people bring to church ... After all, when everything is good, they do not often come with it, but when it is bad, the soul seeks answers and brings a person to God. Once he, having lost his family, came for answers. Then, his future mentor, said:

- DO NOT SEEK ANSWERS FROM GOD, SEEK THEM IN YOURSELF. THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN SEEK IN YOURSELF. And PAIN - IT ALWAYS CLEANSES, IT REMOVES UNNECESSARY GROWTH FROM OUR SOUL. SOMETIMES THERE IS ONLY SENSE TO CARRY OUT YOUR BURDEN. AND REMEMBER, THE LORD, ALWAYS GIVES A MAN, EXACTLY AS MUCH AS IT IS ABLE TO ENDURE - BOTH GOOD AND BAD.

The first thing that Katya saw when she woke up was the father's eyes glowing from within. She vaguely remembered what she was doing in the church, but that was enough to make her blush with shame. "Yes, it's full of you, the Lord has not seen such things," - Father Michael said, smiling, - "And people will forget, don't worry." Here he repeated to Katya word for word what his mentor had once told him.

Epilogue

Katya was looking for an answer for a long time, knowing that she was not destined to give birth to a child until she found it. She got up with this question and went to bed with it, sometimes it seemed to her just about and she would understand why it happened. And somehow, looking at some kind of program, catching a glimpse of the phrase: "Do not think that you are better than others ...",it suddenly dawned on her: PRIDE! and CONDEMNATION !!! This is why she was punished, this is what they wanted to show - she remembered how she condemned all her friends for mistreating children, she remembered her conviction that only she would be the best mother, that God, they say, gives children to women unworthy of this gift.

Katya rushed to confession and told everything to Father Mikhail, she was so happy that she found the answer, that she finally understood what her little girl's soul asked for, who chose Katya as her mother (for some reason she really wanted to believe that 3 her unborn babies had one soul).

Father, after Katya left, he sat for a long time and smiled, he blessed Katyusha and knew that now everything would be fine. "God works in mysterious ways!" -he thought, as he always admired the deeds of the One whom he so believed.

Seeing Katya's husband from afar, Father understood everything, and once again thanked the Creator.

After 5 days, the happiest mother and her little Mashenka were discharged home, the proud father, without holding back tears, took his long-awaited daughter with trembling hands for the first time in his life.

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Children who were not allowed to be born

Monument to unborn children in Slovakia

Considering the question of the most intimate, other-related processes of creating a new person, it is impossible to avoid the problem of artificial termination of pregnancy, or, more simply, abortion.

What is termination of pregnancy from the point of view of esoteric knowledge?
What are its consequences both for a woman who decided to take such a difficult step, and for an unborn child?

Responding to letters from colleagues and followers of the Living Ethics teaching, Helena I. Roerich wrote:

« You have touched upon the most painful issue of our time, the issue of the legality of abortion. Of course, there can be no two opinions here - abortion is the most definite murder. Therefore, it can only be tolerated where the mother's life is in danger.
The doctrine says - "As hunger pushes for food, so a ready spirit, for which the time has come, strives for a new incarnation." Therefore, one can imagine what kind of suffering is sometimes experienced during a violent break. The spirit receives a connection with the fetus from the moment of conception and begins to gradually enter into it in the fourth month, when the nerve and brain channels are formed. Therefore, abortion is permissible only in exceptional cases. "

Helena Roerich's words about the connection between the spiritual principle of the future personality and her physical embryo are especially significant. Speaking about the formation of nerve and cerebral channels, Helena I. Roerich also has in mind the special psychoenergetic channels of the higher centers of consciousness, called chakras in yoga.
Thus, in the fourth month of pregnancy, the embryo is no longer just a biological organism, but also a kind of spiritual entity.

The opinion expressed by esoteric teachings about the problem of abortion, of course, contradicts the ideas prevailing in society until recently that an abortion with a gestational age of no more than three months is nothing terrible from the point of view of morality, since a three-month-old embryo, they say, is absent spiritual and personal beginning. However, the esoteric system of knowledge suggests that, as Helena I. Roerich wrote, the spiritual principle has a connection with the fetus from the moment of conception. It cannot be otherwise, given the fact that the Monad of a person first creates the mental and astral bodies, corresponding to his spiritual and karmic accumulations, and only then the etheric body and its dense material physical counterpart.

And if we also take into account the karmic connection of the incarnating soul with its future parents, and the special astrological terms necessary for the appearance on the earthly plane of this particular person, and not any other person, it is easy to understand what a terrible mistake an abortion made only of - for the unwillingness of young parents to burden themselves with a child at an "inappropriate" time.

Modern medical research using ultrasound and other sophisticated techniques has also refuted the notion that the destruction of a human fetus is not murder in the full sense of the word. A three-month-old embryo is an already formed living creature that has the ability to sense impending danger.

In the West, with the participation of well-known medical specialists, a documentary was shot about what an abortion really is. With the help of advanced ultrasound devices, a dispassionate film camera captured the most horrific details of the extermination operation human being in the mother's womb: footage of the film confirmed the words of doctors that a three-month-old fetus during an abortion makes an instinctive attempt to evade the surgeon's scalpel or vacuum curette (with which the embryo is destroyed) and opens his mouth in an attempt to scream in the same way as an adult screams at the moment of mortal danger. This terrible in its veracity film was named by its creators "Silent Scream".

The forced expulsion of the fetus from the mother's womb is terrible not only for the fact that in this case the parents are killing their own child. Practiced for more than one century, abortions violate the natural laws of the cycle of births and deaths, in other words, the arrival of human consciousness in the physical world and their departure to another world.

A. Klizovsky wrote about this: “We need to think about what kind of perturbation this brings to the laws of the development of life, to the astral world and to the fate of many thousands of beings who have come to reincarnate again, who have already clothed themselves in subtle bodies - mental and astral, who have finished their stay in these worlds and who need receive only a physical body from their earthly parents. So they choose a family in which they are supposed to be born, they are born, but they, as unnecessary, are expelled back. Thus, they were not born for real, and did not die for real, but they are in some middle state between birth and death. "

It is known that children who died in infancy very quickly, literally within a few months from the date of death, are reincarnated. As a rule, they are born in the same family where their previous incarnation, interrupted by death, took place. But in the event of an abortion, the circumstances of their new birth will be significantly complicated. The state of the energy complex of children (more precisely, subtle embryos), who were never allowed to be born, can be so painful that the Living Ethics teachings say about it: "To stop the birth of children is worse than murder."

About what exactly the soul of an unborn baby is experiencing - a soul forcibly expelled into the astral world, is indirectly confirmed by a real case cited by Peter Gariaev in his interview with one of the scientific publications. Working in the field of psychogenetics, P. Gariaev considered the problem of transplanting donor organs to patients in need of them. The scientist was interested in what kind of energy background the organs taken from another person (especially an animal) bring into the recipient's body, having, possibly, a fundamentally different level of spirituality and, accordingly, psychoenergetics.

In the case described by Gariaev, a finger of an embryo that died as a result of an abortion was transplanted to a patient who lost a finger as a result of an injury. Doctors believed that the tissue of the embryo's finger, engrafted on the patient's hand, could subsequently grow and form a normal-sized adult's finger. However, this experiment had an unexpected result. Shortly after engraftment, the patient developed something like mental disorder: he began to hear an incomprehensible child's voice, as if saying something to him, and then the patient began to think that instead of an engrafted finger, a living boy was growing on his hand, trying, moreover, to contact him telepathically.

Analyzing this case, Gariaev suggested that this could not have been about the patient's excessive impressionability - a completely balanced person, but about the so-called “sharing” of the consciousness of an unborn baby with the biofield of an adult who carries on his hand a tiny piece of his body (in the form of an engrafted finger). Forcibly expelled into the astral plane, but not adapted to existence in it, the soul of a child who was not born, but did not really die, “penetrated” into the biofield of another person, finding in him at least some temporary refuge. The poor patient really had something to start going crazy, hearing the voice of an invisible child in his mind! This situation turned out to be close to what in esotericism is called obsession, that is, the invasion of an alien astral entity with its own consciousness into the subtle-material complex of an embodied person.

An abortion, performed only because of the unwillingness of parents to burden themselves with the birth of a child, always has negative karmic consequences. One amazing case was told in her letter to the newspaper by a woman who had an abortion in her youth at the insistence of her adored husband. As a scientist, he did not want to disturb the peace and quiet of his scientific pursuits with the birth of a third, moreover, as usual, noisy and time-consuming creature. Like the overwhelming majority of women, the heroine of our story really did not want to have an abortion, but in order not to upset her beloved, she still went for it. Immediately after the operation, returning to the ward, the woman experienced a strange state: as if in the area of \u200b\u200bthe sternum in her body some kind of invisible and "not physical" thread was torn. And then she saw a little boy standing next to her bed. The baby seemed to her close and dear, and somehow she realized that something torn apart bound them both. The boy told her something like: “Goodbye Mom! I will never return to you ... "

The woman felt a strong desire to detain him, to make sure that he did not leave, and therefore began to talk to him. Then the worried neighbors in the hospital ward began to ask her: "Who are you talking to there?", Obviously taking her condition as delirium or hallucinations caused by the operation she had just undergone. Then the woman realized that the child who appeared next to her hospital bed was nothing more than a ghost, but the ghost of her lost son ...

Life severely punished the woman who never became a mother for a mistake: she could no longer have children. But throughout her subsequent life she had several amazing dreams in which she saw the image of her son, as it were, gradually growing up. In these dreams, a young man came to her, calling her "mother" and outwardly similar to her husband in his youth. Each time he told her something important about the future events of her life. All these predictions came true.

A few years after that tragic mistake, the husband, because of whose insistence the woman sacrificed a child at one time, left her, motivating this by the same thing as he had previously explained his demand for an abortion - by the need for complete solitude and peace, which his scientific research. However, shortly after the divorce, he married another woman. But he did not live with his new wife for long. Once the soul of her lost son once again came to the heroine of our story in a dream and in a symbolic form warned her about the imminent death of "dad" (as the young man from the dreams called the husband of that woman). This prediction also came true ...

What kind of strange connection existed between the heroine of this non-fictional story and her unborn child? Was this story based on an attempt to incarnate a spiritually highly developed personality in a preselected family? Or, in this case, there was simply a strong karmic connection between the members of such a sad and ridiculously scattered and disintegrated family? One can only guess about this. But one thing is certain: having unjustifiably yielded to a man in demands for an abortion and not believing the voice of her spirit, the heroine of this story made an irreparable mistake both in relation to herself and in relation to her unborn child.

Artificial termination of pregnancy has negative consequences not only for the soul of a child who has become a victim of parental frivolity or ignorance of the true laws of nature. Of course, in the conditions prevailing in the modern world, and especially in Russia, conditions, few women did not resort to artificial termination of pregnancy. And one can hardly blame them for this, because the reason for this sad act is most often not only a lack of knowledge about the spiritual and karmic side of this problem, but also, above all, elementary financial difficulties that prevent most Russian families from having more than one or two children. And yet, women who abuse the possibility of abortion and thereby doom many beings striving for incarnation to unjustified torment, inevitably create a heavy karma for themselves, regardless of whether they know about it or not.

A woman who has had too many abortions, in future incarnations, may not only share the sad fate of her children, whom she never allowed to be born, but also be unable to have children, no matter how much she wants to. Abortion has another negative consequence. As you know, the violent deprivation of life of any living creature leaves an indelible energy trace in the surrounding space (as, indeed, any action in general). Where the murder occurred, the so-called "space of death" is formed, the energy of which has negative characterthat has a corresponding effect on everything around. In the case of abortion, this "space of death" becomes the mother's womb, capable of giving life to more than one child. And if a woman's first pregnancy ended not with the birth of a child, but with an abortion, it is easy to understand what energy impact will subsequently produce a mother's womb for subsequent children, whom this woman still wants to have one day.
Information about the murder of their predecessor, even at a subconscious, instinctive level, will affect the formation of their character and psycho-emotional warehouse in the most negative way.

P. Gariaev believes that the "phantom of death" that remains in astral body aborted woman, distorts not only her own genetic code, but also the genetic code of a man who will subsequently have an intimate relationship with her ...

How to avoid the tragedies associated with the murder of their unborn children by parents, even if modern facilities contraception, reliable enough, yet do not give one hundred percent protection against pregnancy?

Helena I. Roerich wrote about this: “For this, in family life there is the most natural abstinence, which is quite possible to regulate and thereby give a norm to the growth of the family. This is quite possible when high interests occupy the head and heart. Of course, I foresee many objections to this, but, nevertheless, I will stand my ground. Undoubtedly, given the present moral state of society, this is difficult, but still there are such families, and in the future they will multiply. In ancient times, people knew how to normalize the birth rate by the phases of the moon. Then it was seen as a kind of magic, but in our age, even such an action would be better than the terrible abortions that cripple a woman, and therefore, future offspring. "

In some countries of Indochina since antiquity, there has existed (and still exists among the people) an amazing tradition that helps young parents prevent the "untimely" birth of a child, without taking what is called a sin on their souls. The originality of this tradition also lies in the fact that it once again proves on concrete facts that the embryo in the mother's womb is not an unconscious clot of matter, but a spiritual entity capable of consciously reacting to the world... The essence ancient tradition consists in the fact that when signs of pregnancy of a woman in the family appear, who for financial reasons was not ready to have a child, the head of the family kneels in front of his wife sitting opposite him and ... aloud addresses the soul of the baby in her body. He asks for forgiveness from the incarnating soul for the fact that his family, due to poverty, cannot yet afford the pleasure of having children, and sincerely convinces the soul of his unborn child to wait a little with the birth until at least a little money is added to the family ...

Folk tradition claims that if the child's father's appeal to his soul was sincere (like his love for him), then the results of this conversation affect very quickly: the signs of pregnancy disappear! Is the spiritual principle of a person really capable of "postponing" the dates of its birth, and at the same time also "dissolving" its physical shell, which has already begun to form? The inhabitants of the East, who have absorbed the basics of esoteric knowledge with mother's milk, really can do a lot that is inaccessible modern people West, divorced from nature and age-old folk traditions.
Be that as it may, both for the East and for the West there is a universal means, which alone is capable of helping people not to complicate their lives with tragic mistakes - this means is called Knowledge. Helena I. Roerich, answering the questions of the Living Ethics followers, mentioned in her letter that only enlightenment and education can really solve the problem of abortion, as well as dozens of other most painful problems of modern society. It must be said that in the ancient bygone civilizations, the sacred knowledge of the laws of creating a family, of the birth and upbringing of a future person was incomparably given greater importancethan in our era.

In esoteric teachings, it is repeatedly mentioned that in ancient times there was a special system of initiating everyone into the foundations of esoteric knowledge. Women of bygone eras received the knowledge necessary for the birth and upbringing of healthy offspring from dedicated priests and priestesses who created special schools of esoteric knowledge at temples. In addition to the usual knowledge, women of antiquity could also receive initiation into the secret higher knowledge, which took place in the form of the mysteries.

A. Klizovsky in the work mentioned by us notes that special systems of education and initiation of women into higher knowledge existed in India, in Vedic times, in Ancient egypt (this function was performed there by the mysteries of Isis), in Greece - in the Eleusinian mysteries, in Rome - also during special rituals and mysteries dedicated to female deities and took place in the temples of Juno, Diana, Minerva and Ceres.

About what the esoteric knowledge of the foundations of married life, the birth and upbringing of children, accessible to women of ancient eras, was said in the Living Ethics and in the Letters of Helena I. Roerich: “Initiation consisted in symbolic rites and ceremonies, in night festivals, and then in special teachings given by senior priests or the high priest and which concerned the most intimate aspects of married life. Advice and rules were given regarding gender relations, seasons and months that are conducive to a happy conception. The greatest importance was attached to the physical and moral hygiene of a woman during pregnancy, so that the sacred work of the creation of a new person was performed according to divine laws. Thus, the science of marriage and the art of motherhood was taught in the women's mysteries. "

Acquaintance with the basics of esoteric knowledge made the attitude of people of previous eras to the problems of marriage, matrimony and childbirth more meaningful and serious. This knowledge helped people avoid mistakes that could complicate both their personal karma and the karma of their children, clan and the entire nation as a whole. As noted in esoteric sources, “for a man and a woman who are truly initiated, the creation of a child has an infinitely more beautiful meaning and greater significance than for the uninitiated. For the father and mother, who know that the child's soul exists before its earthly birth, conception becomes a sacred act, a call of the soul to incarnation. There is almost always an affinity between the embodied soul and the mother. Therefore, bad and depraved mothers attract dark and evil souls to themselves, while gentle and pure mothers attract pure souls to themselves. Holy and beautiful is the task of the mother, who creates a new home for this soul, facilitates its imprisonment in carnal limitation and softens the test ahead of her.

The great significance of a woman's initiation into esoteric science, oh sacred meaning family and motherhood A. Klizovsky, citing esoteric sources, writes: “Due to the fact that the woman, with full awareness, performed the duties of a wife, mother and priestess, whom in ancient times were looked upon as divine, she really was a priestess of the family, the keeper of the sacred fire of Life, the Vesta of the hearth. The dedication of a woman in the ancient world was the true reason for the beauty of the race, strong generations and the longevity of the family in Ancient Greece and in Ancient Rome. "

The first seven years

But back to the process of forming a new personality.
The birth of a small person is a complex and mysterious process, far from fully understood. modern science... What is small child in the spiritual and mental plane? By what laws do his physical organism, psyche and mind live and develop?

As already mentioned, the formation of the organism of a future person is influenced not only by external factors, but also by the karmic accumulations of the incarnating individual himself. These accumulations are expressed in the level and state of spiritual and mental development of the higher energy bodies of the future person. A. Besant in his works writes that, through the astral body, the mental shell influences the organization of the nervous system of the future individual, thus preparing an instrument for its future expression. This influence of the higher principles and the subtle bodies corresponding to them on the physical appearance of a child begins before the birth of a person and continues until the age of seven. Only at the age of seven does the final connection of the subtle-material complex of a person with his physical body take place. In the same period - that is, in the first seven years of life - the child's astral and mental bodies are brought into correlation with the nervous organization of his physical body. Parallel to this, the final shaping of the physical structure of the brain and nerves is taking place.

Naturally, the task of forming a physical body falls with all its weight not only on the building elemental, but also on the incarnated soul itself. Esoteric sources say that the constant screaming and crying of some babies is caused precisely by the fact that their mental body can hardly cope with the task of creating its physical body. Although early childhood is considered to be the golden time of a person's life, the very period of getting used to the spirit and energy complex to a new, moreover, still just forming physical shell is a rather difficult period for a child.

As E. Barker writes in the book "Letters of the Living Deceased", any fall and physical pain are a real shock for the baby. Adaptation to a new, tender and vulnerable body causes mental confusion and moral suffering in children. These inconveniences and experiences of children are much deeper than adults think, who do not know about the “other”, subtle side of the growing up process.

Paramahamsa Yogananda recalled: “The amazing helplessness of childhood has not disappeared from my memory. With resentment I realized the inability to walk and freely express myself. From the understanding of bodily weakness, waves of supplication rose in me. Mental fermentation and body helplessness provoked screaming attacks. With my grief, I caused general confusion among family members. "

During this period of a child's life, the activity of his soul takes place more in the Subtle World than in the physical. Until the age of seven, the consciousness of children lives half in the Subtle World, and this is what makes possible those unusual manifestations that almost always baffle parents. Children often see the Subtle World and its inhabitants, hear voices inaudible for adults, recall episodes from their previous lives.
The first three years of a child's life are especially important for the formation of his spiritual and mental sphere. At this time, the mental and mental image of the future person is laid. During the first three years of life, the child's natural connection with the Cosmos has not yet been interrupted, the chakras - the accumulators of subtle energies - are still slightly open.

What are chakras, or centers of higher energy in the human body, we all know thanks to the teachings of Agni Yoga.
It is the slightly opened chakras that give a person parapsychological abilities - clairvoyance, astral vision, clairaudience, memory of previous incarnations, etc.
After the age of three, the activity of the higher chakras is less active. This is due to the fact that gross and heavy energies physical world (more precisely, human society with its ever-increasing psychospiritual ill-being) suppress high-vibration impulses of the higher centers, their energetics is drowned out.

But throughout the child's life, the higher centers can periodically open up, obeying their mysterious inner rhythm. Despite the fact that not all children have chakras open, many children still have astral vision and a special, natural connection with the inhabitants of another plane. When children say: “Mom, when you left, little girls came to play with me” or “I saw gnomes on the closet” - these are not just fantasies. Children really see many things that are invisible to adults. Astrologer Tamara Globa, for example, recalled that when she was a child, she saw in dark room a bear invisible to adults. And the shape of a bear (just like a cat) is often taken by astral beings, which are traditionally called brownies by the people. But her mother convinced the girl that there could be no bears in the house and that it only seemed to her.
The girl believed her mother and ... really stopped seeing them. Firmly entrenched in the consciousness "this cannot be," so characteristic of the world of adults, in this way programs the future perception of the child. From birth, children can do a lot that is inaccessible to adults. But with their mistrust, skepticism and ignorance, adults, as a rule, quickly deprive them of the ability to perceive another world, imposing on them their worldview and perception of the surrounding reality - very far from the objective picture of the world, often intuitively accessible to children ...

Secrets of Former Lives

Another secret with which a new person comes to Earth is the secret of his past life. Every little child is a real alien from the Subtle World. Where did he travel, who did he meet, what mission did he come to Earth on? This is his secret, and no one can know this in advance. Only the combinations of planets at the time of the birth of a child can hint to the astrologer about his future destiny, the magic thread of samsara and karma associated with the past. Spontaneous “memories of the past” are often available to young children.

“I see how my earliest memories embrace the anachronistic features of the previous incarnation. Clear pictures of memories came to me from a distant life, when I was a yogi in the Himalayan snows. These glimpses of the past, thanks to a dimensionless connection, enabled me to see the future as well. My highly emotional life was mentally expressed in words in many different languages. In the midst of this inner confusion, the ear gradually became accustomed to the ambient sounds of my people’s Bengali language. The sphere of the mobile mind of a child who sincerely considers himself limited by toys and toes! "

Such memories of infancy were remembered by the Indian spiritual Master Paramahamsa Yogananda.

How different these sensations are from the qualities that traditional medicine and psychology ascribe to newborn babies! Psychologically, what is a newborn baby? Tabula rasa is a "blank slate", a reflexive organism devoid of any experience with innate subconscious instincts - that's all! But are babies really like that? IN recent times both in our country and in the West, alternative theories to traditional concepts have appeared, borrowed by modern scientists from Eastern esoteric sources. These theories allow you to look at children in a different way.

Many examples of unexpected manifestations of child psychology are also prompting psychologists to revise the traditional point of view. Passing with their parents past the monument to the heroes of the Great Patriotic War, a four-year-old kid suddenly said: “Mom, this monument was built for me too. I used to be an adult and fought with enemies and they killed me! " Childhood fantasy? Maybe. But the cases of recollections of previous incarnations have become so frequent and, moreover, provable on concrete facts that scientists are now seriously dealing with the problem of reincarnations. Very often children - “aliens” from other worlds and other incarnations - remember much from their previous lives and from their wanderings through the Subtle worlds.

Modern research on the intrauterine development of infants is carried out using such advanced and highly sensitive equipment that thanks to it, scientists were able to record rapid eye movements in babies in the womb at certain periods of time. Such eye movements, as scientists have found, occur in adults during dreaming. Therefore, newborns can also dream. But, according to the official theory of dreams, sleep is primarily a reflection of the earthly experience of a person and the events of his earthly life. If we share the narrowly materialistic point of view on a person as a creature living on earth for a single time, then we have to admit that an embryo that does not have experience of earthly life in the womb should not see any dreams. But experimental evidence suggests otherwise! What can unborn babies see in a dream? No other than their previous lives.

However, it should be noted that information about previous incarnations preserved in the subconscious of children is very different in its spiritual content. The successive connection with past lives is manifested not only in the recollection of some details and events, but also in the very behavior of the child. And if a child from childhood shows incomprehensible cruelty towards, for example, animals or his peers, this should become an alarm signal for his parents. It is quite possible that not very much came to this world in the body of a charming baby. good person... And in order to prevent a tragic turn of events in his future life and in the life of his parents, the development of such children must be vigilantly monitored, not allowing the slightest manifestations of cruelty and injustice towards others on the part of the child.

The idealistic perception of babies as "angels", still devoid of any flaws, is far from the real state of affairs. Another thing is that the true nature of the child in moral terms will begin to manifest itself a little later. But even at three or four years, its makings can already be seen. In one family, a four-year-old kid, having watched Kashpirovsky's sessions on TV, began to "give out" such things to parents that they simply grabbed their heads. It was not only about hysterics and the desire to do deliberate nasty things, which the child did not have before. Alyoshenka said to his mother: "I want to become a black man." And to the frightened question: "Why?" he replied, "To kill people."

The child has not just seen enough "horror films" on television. Parents began to notice that their beloved child is doing strange things - overturning chairs, scattering clothes and things on the floor and at the same time telling the family: “Don't touch it, let it lie like that”. Getting angry with some family member, the baby began to walk around him counterclockwise, clearly following the route and muttering something rhythmically at the same time.

All this, of course, the parents considered childish whims, but once Alyoshenka's mother opened the book of either Papus or some other magician and read with amazement that, wishing to bring misfortune to someone's house, sorcerers imperceptibly penetrated it in their astral body and scattered objects on the floor, overturned chairs, disrupting the order and "destroying" space. The same is with the counterclockwise circle - it was an ancient magic trick designed to "charm" the victim of the sorcerer. Having made this discovery, the boy's mother turned to the astrologer, asking him to explain the strange behavior of her son. In her heart she was sure that the child was "jinxed" by Kashpirovsky. However, the matter turned out to be more complicated. In the boy's cosmogram, there was a black moon on his ascendant. Many astrologers regard this combination as an indication that in a previous life the child was a black magician. And the telecasts of another magician-hypnologist awakened the information of the previous incarnation. And besides, the one that shouldn't have been woken up at all ...

Between the past and the future

But here's a difficult one the period of formation of the new body is over. Subtle body getting along with his newphysical shell. Nervous system and the cerebral cortex getfinal design according to karmic baggage and creativepotential of the subtle complex.

How is human development goingfurther? The child grows up, learns the world. It begins to show itsindividuality. But, as a rule, until the age of fourteen, the aura of children is almostcolorless or tinged with accumulations of past lives. Only at fourteen years oldthe teenager's "own ray" appears, - the color of the aura becomes definite,the teenager becomes a person and energetically. It goes without saying that histhe personality still maintains a continuity with spiritual accumulationsprevious incarnations. This connection, in fact, has been manifested since the age of three. Butat the age of three to ten years, the accumulation of past lives manifests itself spontaneously andunconsciously for the child. This is something like an automatic mode that does notcontrolled by consciousness.

Another thing is the age of a teenager. Here alreadya new individuality is formed, and the child's consciousness, which has already learned the differencebetween good and evil, can make a conscious moral choice in their behavior.
The personality of the new incarnation comes into its own, and the aura of the teenager gets itsindividual beam and color.
But this does not mean that his connection with the other worldstops. A person's connection with the invisible world always exists. In anyage, each of us has invisible helpers and Guardian Angels, and there areenemies and tempters from another world. Special attention creatures from parallelplan show specifically to adolescents. Ufologists have long noted that the phenomenonpoltergeist, as a rule, is associated with adolescent children, 11-15 years.

A teenager can be a carrier of a poltergeist, in other words, an object of increasedattention from the spirits, and, most likely, unfriendly.(Otherwise, how to explain the pillows and chairs flying around the rooms, the pogroms in the kitchen,falling cabinets and refrigerators?) While ufology has no convincing explanationa similar phenomenon. It is believed that the physiological restructuring that occurs inthe body of a teenager and is reflected in energy level, promotesbuilding a strong energy field in the physical space wherethe teenager is. And this increased energy background in some casesattracts noisy dimensional neighbors to this space. butit seems that the real reason for the persecution of some teenagers by the poltergeistdeeper. It is associated not only with the restructuring in the body of a growing up child,but also with karmic terms.

As already mentioned, in adolescence there is a switch of karmic mechanisms - the teenager "leaves" the "field"his parents and begins to form a new, his own "field". In thatperiod, that is, in adolescence, the main connections and trends of the previousincarnations are strained with special force. It is known that, for example, practicing magicassociated with the submission to the will of the magician of various elemental spirits, with the help of whichmany magical actions are performed. However, not a singlea rational being in Space does not like to be imprisoned and forcedto obey someone. Meanwhile, magic itself is based on violentmastering some subtle energies and wills of less intelligent than a person,creatures. If a person in the past incarnation was a magician and forced to serve himselfinvisible elemental spirits, whose lifespan reaches hundreds of years, is possible,that in the next life, as a teenager, when the first failure occurskarmic accounts, his past assistants are trying to let him know about theirexistence, and maybe revenge in its own way for many yearsforced service.

However, the phenomenon of a poltergeist can becaused by various reasons, and you should not look for its culprits only amongadolescents. The disembodied entities of the astral plane play a role inlife of each of us. And it wouldn't hurt us to know that their interest in usis determined primarily by the spiritual and moral level of our thoughts, feelingsand actions.

In general, the question of the moral orientation of any rational being inCosmos - be it a person, an inhabitant of the physical plane, or a disembodiedessence astral world - is a matter of great importance. In the endas a result, it is the spiritual and moral orientation that determines karma and fate asan individual being - whoever it is - and the entire planet as a whole. No wonderthe eternal struggle of two opposites - good and evil - has always been one ofcentral problems of all esoteric philosophical teachings.
Involvement a person to the forces of any one of the two eternally fighting camps of light and darknessdetermines his fate for many incarnations ahead.

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Prologue.
From January 6 to January 7, the most festive night for the entire Orthodox world, Katya was holding her newborn daughter, Mashenka, in her arms. In the ward, where all the women in labor were already asleep, and their babies snoozed peacefully - having made the first and most important path in life - from mother's tummies to the white light, Catherine spent the first hours with her long-awaited, so long-awaited, so desired baby.

She sat, not letting go of her, as if afraid that Mashenka (as she called her pride) would suddenly disappear. In the light of the lantern shining in the hospital window, Katya looked with emotion at her tiny face, small nose, cheeks, closed eyes with beautiful long eyelashes, lips, everything seemed so perfect. “How long have I been waiting for you!” - holding back tears, whispered happy mom. And lifting up her eyes, she mentally said, - "Thank you !!!" to the one whom she accused, and cursed, and asked, and thanked all these years. Pictures of the years lived, the trials passed, the stories of despair and humility ran before her eyes. All this, now, when on her hands, the most important gift presented by fate was snoring, it seemed not an accident. Now everything she had experienced was being revealed in a different light - like the road she had been taken to make her stronger, wiser and more tolerant. But the most important gift that she received with her baby was the ability to appreciate such a gift from heaven as the birth of a Child.

Svetochka.
Katyushka grew up as an obedient and sweet girl, making mom and dad happy. After graduating from school, she left for another city, entered the institute, after which she returned to her parents. I met my one and only - Slava, got married. Everything was going well - she and her husband bought an apartment, Katya had an interesting and well-paid job, with the prospect of career growth. The young people had a great relationship, it seemed they were just made for each other. They always had many friends in their house, in the summer they preferred outdoor activities - rafting on rivers, climbing mountains. Life was interesting, but at the same time it did not bring any unpleasant surprises.

Having lived together for three years, the young couple began to think, as it should be about children. Katerina would make an excellent mother, she was calm and very kind, no one has ever seen her irritated or angry. It seemed to such a woman that fate was simply written to become a wonderful mother.

When the test showed the cherished two stripes, everything in the life of Slava and Katya changed. They read books about pregnancy, ate only healthy food, did gymnastics, and walked a lot. Every evening, going to bed, they talked about Svetochka (Katya, for some reason, was sure that Svetochka was waiting for it). They imagined what she would be like, how they would walk with her, bathe, feed her. Katya spent hours talking with the baby, repeating how she was waiting and loving her. Together they went to swim in the pool, listened to classics and children's stories. Observing her friends who had children, she noted that since Lena, she would not talk to her baby, she would not punish the way Tanya did, she was not going to celebrate birthdays the way Oksana did. Even on the street watching mothers with children, she always knew what she would not be - especially if a scene with a roar or punishment unfolded in front of her eyes. Although the belly was not yet noticeable, all the acquaintances immediately understood, although they did not show the appearance that Catherine was pregnant. She radiated such light and tranquility, her face was so spiritual and happy that there was no doubt.

At twelve weeks old, Katyusha and her husband went to the first ultrasound scan. It's one thing to imagine that a little man is growing in your belly, it's another to see it with your own eyes. It is so surprising that the strawberry-sized "button" already had legs, arms and even fingers, a heart was pounding. Katka even burst into tears, it turned out to be so exciting to see her little Miracle floating inside her. The doctor assured that everything is normal, the fetus is developing, according to the development schedule and there are no pathologies. The word - fruit, somehow even cut Katya's ear - for her it was not a fruit, it was her little princess, her Svetochka.
On the way home, the happy parents bought a cake and in the evening over tea they only discussed what legs and what hands their baby had, and how smart their little Svetochka was. At night, Katya woke up from a dull aching pain in the lower abdomen, woke her husband up. Slava called an ambulance and tried to calm his wife. Katya, on the other hand, could not find a place for herself, such fear rolled over her in waves that her heart began to pound quickly, quickly. She grabbed the printed prayers for pregnant women from the table and began to read them without stopping. An ambulance arrived, Katya was taken to the hospital, and Slava, unable to find a place for himself, followed.
Already in the hospital, Katerina had a miscarriage, she was cleaned and left until morning. Either moving away from anesthesia, or in a dream, Katya saw a little girl walking up the road somewhere, turning, and smiling, waving her hand to her. The next morning, Katya woke up in the ward, where three women were lying in custody, they all looked at her sympathetically, saying some words to her. But she, turning to the wall, cried, mourning her unborn girl, whom she would never braid, never wear a beautiful dress, which she would never sing a lullaby to. Katya felt such pain and emptiness that it seemed to her that women sympathizing with her were rejoicing in their souls, each thinking at the same time - "Thank God, this did not happen to me."

Katya lay and dreamed of only one thing, so that Slava would take her home as soon as possible. After the examination, the doctor discharged Katya, and she returned home. The first thing that caught my eye were books and magazines about pregnancy and motherhood, little booties that I bought on a whim from some grandmother on the market and an ultrasound photograph of their little Svetochka. Slava brought a box from the balcony, put everything there, seeing the state of his wife, decided to remove things reminiscent of this tragedy. Katya went to the doctors, trying to find out the reasons for the miscarriage, took tests - the answer was one - "You are fine, we cannot determine the cause ..."
After talking with her husband, they decided to undergo an examination at a clinic in the capital. Before leaving, Katya, cleaning up the apartment, went to her neighbor, grandmother Raya, to give some food.
Raya's grandmother had five children and seven grandchildren, who often came to visit and visited the old woman. She was a very kind and very religious woman. After drinking tea, Raya's grandmother blessed Katya, sympathizing and very sympathetic to this young, cheerful woman. As she was leaving, Katya stopped at the doorway and asked: "Raya's grandmother, where do the unborn babies go?" And I told her a dream that I had in the hospital. "Oh, baby, I don't even know, but the priest in our church probably knows." - She answered and began, as always, to talk about the new priest, in which, judging by the stories, the whole flock does not like the soul. Katya politely interrupted the conversation, referring to the preparations.

In an expensive clinic in Moscow, after a full examination and various tests, the verdict was the same as at home - “You are doing well. But we recommend to be closely monitored during the next pregnancy. "
Katya and Slava returned, gradually the pain of the loss subsided, life went on as usual. At work, Katya was promoted, everything was going well.

Anya
A year passed, Katya and Slava decided to try one more time. As soon as his wife had a delay, Slava rushed to the pharmacy for tests. Coming out of the toilet, Katya said with tears in her eyes - "It worked!". Now Katya took care of herself like a porcelain vase. Slava even bought her a dishwasher in order to somehow protect his beloved woman from worries. They waited very excitedly for 12 weeks, with a sinking heart, fearing a repetition. This time Katya did not give a name to her baby, fearing to run ahead. On the second ultrasound, she was told that she was expecting a girl. Fears were left behind, and Katyusha began to call her little girl Anechka. She looked at women with children, and kept repeating to herself: "Anya, I will be the best mother in the world for you." The baby has already begun to move inside, for Katya it was just a miracle, she always froze at these moments, afraid to miss even the slightest push. She learned Anechka's daily routine, tried to go to bed herself when her daughter was sleeping or at rest, so as not to suddenly wake up the baby.

It all happened unexpectedly on the twenty-second week, labor began, Katya was admitted to the hospital. With horrified eyes, she grabbed the doctors by the arms and shouted: “Save my child !!! Save Anya !!! Help my baby !!! " Alas, they could not stop the sudden onset of generic activity. Anya was born a stillborn child. Katya begged to show her her daughter, but they wrapped her up and carried her away, explaining that she was not supposed to. She was left alone, lying on the delivery table in the delivery room, having not given birth to a child. The nurse, who was cleaning the floor, for some reason opened the window and left, it became very cold, and Katerina felt how this cold penetrates into every part of her soul and heart, freezing her feelings. The chilling truth that she had lost her second child slowly dawned on her mind. Suddenly, unable to restrain herself any longer, she burst into tears, screamed, out of pain, resentment, self-pity, for Anya, for Slava. She so wanted to become small, to crawl into her mother's arms and hug her, to forget about everything. Katya was injected with a strong sedative and at night she had the same dream again, her girl, her little Anya, left her forever. Only instead of waving her hand the girl said: "Please understand!"

Returning from the hospital, Katya did not want to stay at home for a day and went to work. Tactful colleagues tried not to touch on the topic of children at all in her presence. Katya, no matter how hard she tried, could not cope with her pain. She stopped communicating with her friends who had children, switched the TV, if suddenly they showed a nice little kid. Slava saw how his wife was tormented, more than once offered to discuss everything, advised to speak out, cry out, but she only answered him: "You do not understand!" Thus erecting a huge wall between them.

Three months passed, one Sunday morning, Raya's grandmother rang the doorbell, she said to Katerina: "Get dressed, let's go!" Katya dressed and went without asking. Grandmother took her to church, to the service. Father Michael, the same one that the neighbor constantly talked about, met him at the entrance. He greeted Katya and smiled, and her eyes even stung from the tears that were coming - there was so much warmth and so much love and kindness in the father's eyes that Katyusha's frozen heart responded. She read stories about saints, but here she saw with her own eyes how a person seemed to glow from within.
Throughout the service, Katya was flowing involuntary tears, cleansing her soul, washing away despair and pain. Then, going up to Father Mikhail, she asked: "Father, tell me, where do the unborn children go?" “Sinless souls go to Paradise. Become angels. " - he answered and smiled.

Tanyusha
Another year passed. Slava and Katya bought a new three-room apartment and a car, Slava defended his dissertation, Katya was made head of the department. They went to church together every Sunday. Only sometimes, when meeting with couples with wheelchairs, Katya's heart ached. And yet Katerina decided to take the risk.
She often went to church, talked with Father Mikhail. Everything went fine, without pathologies, the baby moved, the X-hour approached (the period during which she lost Anya). Father Mikhail said that one must believe - and Katya believed. She was registered in the best clinic, the entire pregnancy took place under the vigilant supervision of doctors. Katya believed when the contractions began again ahead of time, believed that they would certainly help her, believed to the last. The baby was born alive, but premature at such a time that no one began to revive her. Katya saw her blond girl dying on the next table within three minutes. She screamed, rushed to her, bit the doctors, she fought, scratched like an animal - but realizing that everything was over, she fell into unconsciousness. And again the vision repeated, for the third time her girl left her, now the baby was crying herself, repeating: "You will understand!"

This was the last, it seemed, the most cruel blow, Katya withdrew into herself. When her husband came for her, with difficulty holding back tears, she asked to take her to church right now. Slava was even delighted, thinking that it was good - maybe faith will help her.
Katya, getting out of the car, ran to the door of the church, ran inside, not seeing anything around, she, pushing the parishioners, rushed to the altar. When she ran up, looking at the icon of the Savior, she screamed at the top of her lungs so that He would hear: “Why are you doing this to me? What have I done so terrible that you punish me like that? Why are you killing my girls? You who, without hesitation, give children to drug addicts, who throw them immediately into the trash !!! " Her husband and father Mikhail ran up to her, they tried to drag her away by force, but Katya struggled, not hearing anything. She turned to the numb people who had come to the service and shouted to them: “To whom are you praying? From whom do you ask? He plays with us like with dolls, tearing off legs, tearing out hearts !!! "
She was nevertheless taken to the priest's room at the church, Katya cried for a long time, whispering: “For what? For what? For what?" Father Mikhail stroked her head, knowing that any words were useless now. How much grief he saw every day, how much pain people bring to church ... After all, when everything is good, they do not often come with it, but when it is bad, the soul seeks answers and brings a person to God. Once he, having lost his family, came for answers. Then, his future mentor, said: “Do not look for answers from God, look for them in yourself. Seek the kingdom of heaven within yourself. And pain - it always clears, it tears away unnecessary growths from our soul. Sometimes the point is just to bear your burden. And remember, Lord, always gives a person exactly as much as he can bear - both good and bad. "
The first thing that Katya saw when she woke up was the father's eyes glowing from within. She vaguely remembered what she was doing in church, but that was enough to make her blush with shame. “Yes, it’s full of you, the Lord didn’t see that,” Father Mikhail said, smiling, “But people will forget, don’t worry.” Here he repeated to Katya word for word what his mentor had once told him.
Epilogue
Katya was looking for an answer for a long time, knowing that she was not destined to give birth to a child until she found it. She got up with this question and went to bed with it, sometimes it seemed to her just about and she would understand why it happened. And somehow, looking at some kind of program, catching a glimpse of the phrase: "Do not think that you are better than others ...", it suddenly dawned on her. Pride! and condemnation !!! This is why she was punished, this is what they wanted to show - she remembered how she condemned all her friends for mistreating children, she remembered her conviction that only she would be the best mother, that God, they say, gives children to women unworthy of this gift.
Katya rushed to confession and told everything to Father Mikhail, she was so happy that she found the answer, that she finally understood what her little girl's soul asked for, who chose Katya as her mother (for some reason she really wanted to believe that her three unborn babies had one soul). Father, after Katya left, he sat for a long time and smiled, he blessed Katyusha and knew that now everything would be fine. "The ways of the Lord are inscrutable!" - he thought, as always admired the deeds of the One whom he so believed.

Five days later, the happiest mother and her little Mashenka were discharged home, the proud father, not holding back tears, took his long-awaited daughter with trembling hands for the first time in his life !!!

I am 24 years old. This story began many years ago. At the age of 16, I had a young man, everything was like everyone else: flowers, candy and the first sex. After school I entered the institute and left my native village, he stayed ... After a while I realized that I was pregnant, my studies had just begun, I was ashamed to return to my native village, and the young man was already dating another. I went to an abortion, I clearly remember my feelings and thoughts. There was no pity, I did not understand what motherhood was, it was scary that later I would not be able to give birth. On New Year Holidays I came to visit my parents, met that guy and we had a new romance. Six months later I find out again that I am pregnant (I used contraception, I drank pills). The young man refused me, said that he needed me, but the child did not. I decided clearly, I will give birth, but the first ultrasound showed abnormalities in the fetus, froze in development, the main vital organs were not developed, I was sent for an abortion for medical reasons for a long time. I cried for a long time, but nothing can be done, had a second abortion ... Several years passed, I married a wonderful man, he really wanted children, but I was silent, I was afraid to tell about my past, I thought I would not understand. But still there is a God in this world, I am pregnant again. She wore this child very carefully, walked slowly, was afraid to breathe again. In the eighth week of pregnancy, I have a dream. The basement of some room, there are many different nooks and entrances, in one of these nooks there are two children: a girl and a boy, holding hands, and all the walls are covered in blood, I immediately realized that these were my unborn children, they were very similar on that guy, a girl of about four years old, a little less than a boy. They stand and look at me, and I roar and then they say: "HERE HERE WE KILLED." I woke up in a cold sweat, I feel the lower abdomen pulls, and it is wet between my legs, I stuck my hand - blood! As I screamed then, my husband jumped up, understood everything at once, ran to start the car, I got dressed quickly, went downstairs, then the hospital, the ward ... And the wild fear of losing him ... My baby ... I sobbed loudly, prayed to all the saints to save the child ... He succeeded save, the gynecologist said that it was a miracle, you couldn't call it any other way, and that during his 10-year practice it hadn't happened so that with such bleeding a miscarriage would not occur and the child was alive. We had a beautiful baby, we love him immensely, as soon as he was born, she baptized him, she began to go to church herself. I began to forget about sleep, until today ... My child is sitting today, playing, I call him to dinner, and he says to me: “- Wait, mom, I’ll finish the game with the children”, I say: “With what children, there’s no one here not". And he told me: "- Yes, here they are," and points to an empty space near him, I took him in my arms, carried him out of the room ... Now he sleeps next to me, and I sit, write and cry ... Girls, dear, not do abortions, you will not be able to bear this sin ... Even worse, our children are responsible for our sins ....

It is no secret that abortion is considered murder in almost all religious denominations of the world, and many spiritual practices open the veil over what happens to the mother-child relationship and what happens if parents decide to get rid of the one who was given life

© Pino Daeni

Many of us are children Soviet Union, and I, as an obstetrician-obstetrician by first education, know firsthand that many women used to consider abortion as a means of contraception. Accordingly, there are few people who are over twenty years old and who do not have unborn brothers and sisters. And if the church claims that an aborted child is a sin borne by parents, then I want to direct your attention to how unborn children affect those who are born.

From a systemic point of view, a family is a system consisting of its representatives interconnected with each other, which influence each other, regardless of whether they are alive or not. So, we can have a good strong connection with our deceased grandmother, pay off the debts of our great-grandfather, repeat the fate of our mother’s older sister, whom everyone has forgotten about, and not allow ourselves to develop and prosper in memory of the repressed relatives. Everything that is not at peace, not mourned and forgotten, in one way or another, affects our life.

The strongest and most enduring bond is the bond between parent and child. Every child carries his family in his heart. And often he does not know where his feelings are coming from - we call it “weaves”. The child is, as it were, intertwined with the events and destinies of people that he may not even know about. Basic rule family relations reads: all relatives have the right to belong. If one of them is excluded, then the fate of the excluded can affect another family member in the next generation, and this can manifest itself in depression, unmotivated attacks of aggression, unwillingness to live, phobias, irrational patterns of behavior and diseases. And until the right of the excluded is restored, until he is given his due, by invisible threads the living are connected with those who have been gone for a long time.

Unfortunately, I will not be able to offer you a clear structure of who and for what reasons falls into this or that interweaving, because each fate is unique, since each system is unique, and nevertheless, we can see certain patterns, but not probabilities.

Let's try to make some kind of classification, what problems are faced by a person who has unborn children and someone who has unborn brothers and sisters.

By the word “unborn” I mean: aborted, stillborn, miscarriage, fertilized eggs during artificial insemination, as well as embryos that are “frozen”, and children who were not born if the mother used a contraceptive “spiral” (then a woman, as a rule, she does not know how many times she became pregnant, and this needs to be clarified through constellation or other types of work with the unconscious).

INFLUENCE OF UNBORN CHILDREN ON PARTNERSHIP

Abortion has a profound effect on the soul. Parenthood occurs at the moment of conception, it cannot be canceled by abortion.
The consequences of abortion for parents are usually much worse than if they had a child.
The blame for what happened cannot be shared - everyone has their own.
If a woman, having become pregnant, did not tell her partner about this, her responsibility and guilt are aggravated.
With every abortion, part of the relationship is aborted. Physically, this may be the termination or violation of sexual relations, but in reality this break occurs at the level of the souls. The situation remains this way until each of the parents admits their guilt, until they mentally look at the child and give him a place in their heart. Then both can be together.
Relationships in a couple cannot be completed if they have unacceptable unborn children. On the subtle plane, this connection remains as long as they are alive.

PARENTS AND UNBORN CHILDREN

The mother's soul experiences an abortion as if she had lost a part of herself. She is attracted to a dead child, she is drawn to death. The pain from this is so great that in most cases this movement passes into the sphere of the unconscious and a woman can feel a lack of strength, a lack of energy, as if her life was flowing away somewhere.
The mother's heart remains with the first unborn child until he is mourned for her, she is "closed" to other children. A baby who is born later may unknowingly feel fear towards the mother.
A man who has aborted children has financial problems of one kind or another.
Living children can be anxious, ill, study poorly, and have accidents. The parent may feel that they do not have real good contact with the child.

CHILDREN WHO HAVE UNBORN BROTHERS AND SISTERS

If you have an unborn brother or sister before you, then this child "ceded" to you his place in the system, because, most likely, you would not exist. Then often such people do not have life itself: they may feel that they have no right to live, feel that they are living several lives at the same time, have financial difficulties. As if they can't afford the full happy life... Usually such people have difficulties with choosing a profession, they complain about the inability to find their way. They have several formations in their arsenal, they often change jobs, their personal relationships are complex and diverse, and among their friends there are many different and radically different people.

In their interaction with the mother, there are two scenarios: detachment, sometimes aggressive excitement in cases when the mother demands or teaches something, "sticking" in a relationship - such a child feels that he is being given too much (for two, or even for three). And the second option: inside him there is not a need, but a sense of duty - he must be successful, famous, leave his mark on this life. As if a person in his heart looks at unborn brothers and sisters and tells them: "I will live my life for all of us!" - and this is what causes many of his failures.
If there are unborn children after you, then the dynamics are less diverse, but, as a rule, the sphere of family relations suffers. Even having created our own family, we feel that we are in the service not only of her, but also of our friends, and at work - for the reason that our soul becomes a “mother” for our brothers and sisters, because our mom doesn't look at them.
If you have unborn brothers and sisters both before and after you, then it is often difficult for such a person to do something with his life at all. In describing their lives, they can use the phrases “I don’t feel support under my feet”, “the earth is leaving from under my feet”, “I don’t know who I am and what I want from this life”, “I have no taste for life”, “I seem to live, but I'm not here”, “I have a feeling that I am not living my life” ...
If there are unborn children between living brothers and sisters, then they feel alienated from each other, sometimes this alienation turns into an abyss.

There are many other nuances, each of which has its own patterns and patterns in different cases. For example, men who have artificially conceived children almost always face serious financial problems. And the point is not only that with this procedure several embryos are used, and success is not always achieved the first time, which means that all these children were not only brothers and sisters, but often twins or twins, and such a connection is even stronger than the bond between mother and child. In this case, such a system can be influenced by great forces, I would say, the forces of nature. We have a saying “God gave a child, he will give it to a child”, but if you “bought” it, she stops cooperating, and here you can hardly do without serious work in correcting this situation.

You may ask: what has it to do with miscarriages and stillborn children, no one killed them? This is true, but often the pain of loss is so great that a couple is unable to truly mourn and let go of such a child. At first, they look for someone to blame, explicitly or implicitly trying to shift the blame onto each other, on doctors, or even on God himself. But if such a child is not talked about, if he is forgotten or there is pain when remembering him, then he is still not mourned, excluded, which means that there will be someone who will partially or completely take his place.

Here are some examples of client work.
A young woman complained that no one wanted to be friends with her five-year-old son in the kindergarten. Parents have already changed the third garden, they try their best, buy toys and sweets for the baby, teach him to share them with other children, but all is in vain. According to the mother, her child is a kind, nice boy who suffers a lot because of the current situation.

In the constellation, she was asked to choose substitutes for her son and for other children and arrange them the way she feels. Everything looked normal right away, except that the boy's deputy had discomfort in the body, unclear perception of reality, sore throat. The mother recognized all these symptoms. But when the deputy toddler began to approach the other children, they felt fear and looked not at the child, but at the places next to him. We introduced additional deputies to the arrangement and placed them to the right and left of the boy, and by feedback we found out that these were also children, this is how they perceived themselves and the boy’s deputy. The client said that she had two abortions before her son, a miscarriage and two more abortions after his birth. When the missing number of children was introduced, everyone felt better. The substitute child looked at them with love, he was very happy and felt absolutely happy. The mother remembered how her son repeatedly in his games communicated with invisible friends, and she was sure that they were the figments of his imagination due to the lack of real friends, and now she was able to see how things really are.

She was asked to enter the constellation herself, to look at her children, and it was clear how difficult it was for her to take every step, but when she was able to say: “You are my children, and I am your mother,” the “children” rushed to her, and she I was able to fully surrender to my feelings. While she cried and hugged her unborn children, her son cautiously began to approach other children, and this time they allowed him to.

Another client made a request that her partnerships are not working out in any way, and that her relationship with children is not the best. When she arranged her family with the help of her deputies, it became obvious that the woman's focus of attention was in a completely different place - she was looking at a place on the floor; when the deputy was put in this place, the client's deputy came up to him, lay down beside him, hugged him and closed her eyes. She hugged him the way a mother hugs a child, and the deputy lay down in the fetal position. The eldest daughter quietly approached them and lay down next to them. When his son also wanted to follow them, his father stopped him.
It turned out that this was the stillborn child of this woman from her first marriage. She only knows that it was a girl, and the doctors did not even show her to her mother. When the woman was able to look at her child and admit that she did not cry for her heartily, the atmosphere of tension and pain felt by all the substitutes began to change. The client gave her daughter a name and promised that she would give her one day of her life: she said that she would take her hand and show her Kiev, that they would go to a children's store, and she would be able to choose a toy for herself, and then they would go to the circus (namely the unborn girl wanted to go there). And only after that, the woman was able to truly see her daughter, son and husband, before that she felt like in a veil. The client's first husband was introduced into the constellation, the son from the second marriage felt a connection with him. The woman said that indeed he behaves as if he were her partner and not her son. He tried to look after her, always paid attention to how she was dressed, once even said that when he grows up, he will marry her. The first husband in this system was also excluded, and the client's son took his place. The children did not know about the client's first marriage, as well as about their stillborn sister.

The woman was able to look into her eyes ex-husband and say that their daughter now has a name, thank him for everything and turn to his family.

The husband stood with their two children and was glad that now she would be with them. In life, he really told his wife that he did not feel her, that she was somewhere not here, which caused her irritation and misunderstanding. In this arrangement, we saw that part of the client's heart remained in her past, which was closed and forgotten along with the pain that remained unlived. The eldest daughter followed her and for this reason she had poor health and a weakened immune system. The son took the place of the first husband, so the whole old family was "assembled". And only the current husband was left alone - there was no place for him, which affected the partnership.

In fact, the theme of unborn children is much deeper - it is endless, like life itself in all its manifestations. And each story requires its own approach and its own unique solution. One thing is important: everyone has their own place in the system and we must live our life, being exactly on it - this guarantees us support and the ability to cope with everything that is in store for us by our destiny. To do this, you need to open your heart to everyone who has ever belonged to our system and give them a place. Then the dead will remain in the world of the dead, and we will not have the need to live someone else's life.