Stories about this in the orphanage. Erotic games for children: remember everything! Children have since read stories

Not my story, but I just liked it! This often happens in life ...

They had known each other for many years. They had not known each other for many years.

She was six, he was ten. 4 years is a huge difference at that age. But when the dog burst into the yard and rushed to the playground where the baby was playing, it was he, the boy with the scar on his cheek, who became the first on the road at the open mouth. And the little girl behind him, frozen like a pillar of salt, when everything fled, only she saw tears of fear in his eyes and stubbornness in his knitted eyebrows. And how could she leave when this brave defender himself was afraid? She shook her head, stood beside her, disheveled and crying. And the dog ran on, hardly paying attention to the two desperate human cubs. Silence, only the piercing creak of a children's carousel. It was then that he roared from the experience of horror behind the garage. And a little hand holding out a dirty handkerchief and a battered mug of water: "Here, wash yourself."

He is sixteen, she is twelve. Quite an adult, with an already piercing antennae above the upper lip. The elevator door opens, letting in a thin, flexible as a reed girl, the first beauty. He follows as if spellbound, without taking his eyes off his back under a translucent blouse, from long legs under a short skirt. Almost pushes the girl out of the way, as always disheveled, awkward. And she stands at the open mouth of the elevator, watching the retreating couple with her eyes. Dives into the already closing doors, finger on the stop button, and goes into desperate sobs. Can't understand why it hurts so incredibly. And all these "love-dislikes" games with classmates are so stupid, so far away now.

She's in graduation. It comes out one hour before the appointed time, in circles around the yard. Patterns on the dust with the toe of a shoe ... He must see her like this, must! Easily runs out of the porch: "Oh hello! Why is she so beautiful? Graduation already? Well, congratulations, kid! Would you like a ride?" Lowers gently into the seat. Inhales the smell of his cologne, cigarettes. His smell. He sees nothing in front of him, landscapes change like a bright kaleidoscope outside the window. The heart, like on a roller coaster, rolls up to the throat, it turns out to ask only how are you. "Yes, great, kid! Yesterday they submitted an application to the registry office! Will you come to our wedding? We will definitely send you an invitation!" The kaleidoscope outside the window crumbles under the wheels of the car, the heart deflates like a ball, shrinks, shrinks ... And he continues to tell something merrily, laugh. "Well, here we are! Good luck, kid!" What luck, what kind of life? It's all over, there is nothing ... This evening she leaves with the most persistent suitor. And then he silently lies, his face turned to the wall.

But the invitation did not come. The bride never sent him. Women, unlike men, always notice these things ...

This is all they remembered, sitting at a cafe table near the playground, where they encountered by chance one sunny clear day. He had apple juice, she had a cigarette. He has a tummy and a bald spot, she has red curls and a high slit on her skirt. He looked at his son, and she looked at her daughter. And the old creaky merry-go-round with two cheerfully screeching children on it spun, spun in a circle.

I. At the basis of my research on the sexual life of girls, I based on the retrospection of adult women (the predominant age is 23-33 years), teachers and students, their recollections of the most vivid sexual impressions of early childhood: they had to write only about what they remember very well, moreover, starting from early childhood. This instruction was given in order to give the recollection the least difficult work ("only that which is very well remembered"), but at the same time to direct it towards the earliest possible childhood. Before giving recollections in writing in a classroom setting, I explained the enormous importance of recollections for science, in particular for sex education. Memories were written in front of my eyes, in general, about 1 hour, moreover, anonymously. After, on the basis of this material, I got some idea about the most vivid sexual impressions in the life of girls, I found the opportunity to find out a number of questions that I had about the sexual life of girls in 14 women of approximately the same profession and the same age as those who wrote memoirs. Only here the questions were about all aspects of girls' sexual life, which only I came across in the course of the study. Finally, I had the opportunity to use retrospection (in the form of oral answers to questions) of five women who led an extremely sexually promiscuous lifestyle (a lot of fleeting sexual intercourse both "because I liked it" and because of the possibility of an easy accidental extra work, although in there is no particular need for money, since legal earnings are not below average). It goes without saying that all the respondents gave memories only of their childhood.

P. In the material received, there was not a single memory that would relate with certainty to the age before the 4th year. The earliest memories were designated only approximately: "three or four years old," "when I was three or four years old," etc. Thus, one cannot use retrospection in relation to early childhood - preschool.

Does this amnesia only apply to early sexual life? Investigating the first memories of childhood, I found that in adults (aged 22-30), the maximum of these memories falls on the 4th and 5th years; the average age for these memories is the beginning of the 5th year (4.2 years). Thus, this amnesia is not sex-specific: it spans all life in early childhood. Here is how the 148 first childhood memories I collected were arranged over the years:

If these numbers are presented graphically, a fairly symmetrical curve is obtained, culminating in the 4th-5th year.

Of the 80 memories I collected of vivid sexual experiences in early childhood, only 27 were of preschool age. Of these, only 21 memories were dated, and almost all were approximately. Therefore, they can only be summarized in a fairly approximate table:

As you can see, the table is quite similar to the previous one. We can reasonably assert that sex life in early childhood is forgotten in much the same way as early childhood in general. Amnesia of early sexual life does not represent anything specific.

However, it is necessary to dwell on one circumstance. Yet about a quarter (26.5%) of adults gave their first childhood memories from the age of three, while no sexual memory was from such early childhood. How can this be explained? It seems to me, the insignificance of sexual impressions at this age.

Of the 190 first childhood memories I collected, only one, and even then with a stretch, can be considered sexual ("I was afraid that I was naked"). This indicates that the sexual impressions of the earliest childhood are weak. Memories of early sexual life are absent, most likely because, in fact, there is nothing in them that is so significant, vivid that it could cut through a lifetime. This is the most plausible assumption. The hypothesis of special sexual amnesia in relation to a given age is superfluous: there is no need for it, and it is not substantiated by anything.

Observable external manifestations of girls' sexuality in early childhood are masturbation and (arguably) unusual manifestations of tenderness. We have no reason to suppose the sexual nature of these manifestations of affection, except for a dubious analogy with the experiences of adults in similar positions. Thus, only masturbation is, apparently, an indisputable manifestation of sexuality in the earliest childhood. But even here the question even arises of what is meant in this case by sexuality.

I have not had the opportunity to observe girls 0-3 years old in such a number and so thoroughly that I could draw any conclusions about the prevalence of masturbation among them. In general, all the statements on this issue so far available must be considered unfounded, since there is no description of how many children the observations were made on and how these observations were organized. Therefore, it is not known what percentage of children masturbate in their earliest childhood. But regardless of this, in the event that an infant or baby masturbates, their masturbation in its psychological nature cannot but differ from the masturbation of older children. In it, for example, there are no masturbatory ideas, that is, masturbatory dreams.

In psychological terms, masturbation in the earliest childhood is devoid of heterotropic erotic ideation, devoid of representations directed to any sexual stimulus. It is simply a pleasure manipulation of your genitals. This early masturbation is still so elementary that it has no psychological experiences, except for simple pleasure. If we add to this that the infant or baby does not yet have, at least to a large extent, the complex and intense experiences of masturbation as a forbidden, dangerous, conspiracy act, then it becomes quite understandable why the earliest childhood does not give vivid sexual impressions and why while about a quarter of adults give their first childhood memories before age 3, the earliest sexual memories are after age 3.

III. Only a third of the women surveyed wrote about their sexual experiences in preschool childhood. Thus, approximately two-thirds of women denied having sex drive at this time. This denial can be explained either by forgetfulness, or hypocrisy, or in fact it was so. In my work "Das Problem der ersten Kindheitserinnerung" ("Arch. Fd ges. Psychologies 1929), I have established that the first memory of childhood refers to an average of 4.2 years in adults. The end of preschool childhood, age 5-7 years, is already relatively Therefore, the aforementioned denial is difficult to explain by oblivion, unless one makes the assumption that early sexual experiences are especially strongly forgotten. they only developed attraction during puberty, during adolescence.It is unlikely to assume that two-thirds of women could forget so much all their sexual experiences before adolescence, if these experiences really were. people talk about their sex life. But I am not inclined to this assumption in this case. that anonymity was firmly guaranteed and they wrote about their distant past, moreover, about childhood, with a great awareness of the importance of truthful messages, the very ones who denied sexual attraction in their early childhood, at the same time did not hesitate to write about themselves in their messages at a later age, very intimate and even odious details. It is difficult to admit that a woman who wrote so frankly would suddenly show insincerity in hiding her earlier, preschool sex life. Therefore, I am inclined to show gullibility and think that it is true that only a third of the women surveyed had a sexual desire awakened in preschool childhood.

More precisely, "it was awakened." In all these women, without exception, sexual desire was awakened by external very strong erotic stimuli. These stimuli were usually of the following two kinds: either the little girl was the subject of sexual assault (more often), or (more rarely) she witnessed coitus "a.

Cases where a little girl has been the subject of sexual assault, in turn, can be divided into several types. Most often it was the examination of her genitals by (usually older) boys and drawing her by them (including sometimes brothers) in a sexual game or even in something like sexual intercourse. Sometimes it was training her masturbation friends and girls-nannies. Finally, sometimes it was sexual stimulation by adult men, usually through kissing and humorous flirting, in some cases, direct and rough sexual assault. In two cases, the impetus was paintings with naked male bodies and pornographic paintings.

In cases where a little girl's sexual desire was awakened by the fact that she witnessed coitus "a, it was usually the coitus of her parents. In several cases it was the coitus of animals, but the latter sexually stimulated only under special conditions, which will be discussed below.

Thus, the environment plays an extremely important role in awakening the sexual desire in a little girl. At the same time, the awakening external stimulus is usually grossly primitive and at the same time strongly erotic stimulus. In its primitiveness, it seems to correspond to the primitive psychology of a little girl. Human love with its complex and muddy manifestations outside of her attention, she passes, without noticing, past her. A different matter - the above stimuli related to the primitive, so to speak, animal side of sexual life: they cannot be overlooked; even a child cannot pass them by, especially since they are often directed just at him. It is quite natural that a primitive creature, such as a little girl, is aroused precisely by primitive sexual stimuli.

And at the same time, as we emphasized, these are highly powerful stimuli: erotic manipulation of the girl's genitals, observation of coitus, etc. Therefore, it is not surprising that they are a powerful impetus for the awakening of sexual desire.

So - from the outside, by a primitive and at the same time very strongly erotic stimulus - the sexual desire of a little girl awakens. If this is true, then it is understandable why in these early years it turned out to be awakened in only a third of the women surveyed. It's about the environment: she awakens sex drive at this age. This happens mainly due to either the sexual aggressiveness of comrades and adults, or due to careless behavior with a child. It is possible that in a sexually more spoiled environment and with less careful caregivers, more than a third of girls will have aroused sexual desire. On the other hand, it is likely that in a more perfect environment, sex drive at an early age will not wake up at all.

It is interesting that none of the 93 women interviewed confirmed the opinion widespread in modern psychology about the erotic effect of the problem of a person's birth on a child. Not content with this, I conducted an additional special survey on this issue of 158 women and got the same result. The question of the birth of a person arises in a child most often at the age of 4-6 years and is often one of a series of questions about the genesis of various things: "from somewhere?" According to my materials, it took on an erotic character only when it was used (most often by girlfriends) for scabrous further conversations about coitus "e.

Depending on what stimulus aroused the little girl's sexual desire, the latter develops in one way or another. As already mentioned, the most common incentive is sexual assault by boys, usually manifested in looking at the girl's genitals or in sexual play. Sometimes, having gone through such a passive exhibitionism, a girl later becomes an active exhibitionist, that is, she herself begins to invite boys to look at her genitals. When the kindergarten teachers told me about the manifestations of sexuality in babies they had noticed, their messages almost entirely (if it was not about masturbation) related to the exhibitionism of girls and the spying of boys, and the girl sometimes found herself in an active role, that is, offering.

The case does not always end with exhibitionism. From the object of examination, the girl sometimes becomes the object of sexual play and coitus-like actions. Here is one example: "The girls lifted their dresses, and the boys ran up with penis in their hands and touched their naked bodies."

All this, judging by the reports, does not pass without leaving a trace for the little girl, but, as a rule, has an outcome in masturbation with corresponding sexual dreams. So, the sexual attraction awakened by the environment finds itself in the future satisfaction either in masturbation, or, on occasion, in exhibitionistic (passive or active) or coitus-like actions. The girl, in reality or (much more often) in masturbatory dreams, begins to strive for this. But the matter is not limited to this. Some of the materials definitely say that the image of the seducer-boy is engraved in the memory as being liked and plays a role later in the formation of love taste: "And later, when I became an adult, I liked men with such eyes."

The sexual story of a little girl affects her future life so deeply.

As a rule, in these cases, the seducers were somewhat older boys. Sometimes a brother appears among them in the role of a pimp, or in the role of an active partner.

While working on a study I have not yet published on jealousy in adults, I came across several cases of my sister's jealousy of her brother: either the sister ardently rebelles against her brother's marriage, insisting on his bachelorhood, then she ardently hates her brother's wife and gives him real scenes of jealousy, then she begins to feel abnormally strong, even to the point of illness, yearning due to the marriage of his brother, etc. Now, while studying the development of sexual desire in boys and girls, I again came across the facts of sexual relations between brother and sister. True, in general, there are few such cases, but still in my collection 6 out of 93 indicated sexual relations with brothers during preschool childhood. These sexual relations arise either as in cases with other boys (exhibitionism - passive and active; sexual games), or as a result of a common bed: "The cold prompted to cuddle up to each other, it was very pleasant", there was a desire for bodily rapprochement, which in the form friction and was carried out in solitude (initiator - brother). The romance of brother and sister, therefore, must find its place, in particular, in psychoanalysis.

But a little girl can be sexually stimulated by adult men as well. Here is a typical story: "I was visiting my uncle. Sometimes he took me in his arms and kissed me. I liked his lips, bright and soft. The sensation was pleasant, and I deliberately began to approach him so that he would kiss me. After that I liked men of the same kind. type - with bright lips and brunettes. " This kind of sexual stimulation usually turns out to be not strong enough to completely awaken the girl's sexual desire: according to my materials, it does not result in masturbation, masturbation dreams, etc. And nevertheless, the influence can still be very deep, affecting the formation of love taste during the further sexual life of even an adult woman.

Probably, the direct encroachment of a little girl by adult men has a completely opposite effect. I only say "probably" because I think I have no right to generalize everything based on the two cases in my collection. In both of these cases, the reaction of the girl under the influence of pain and strong fear is sharply negative, moreover, it persists in adulthood. In the first case (rape), “I felt a hell of a pain ... I was very afraid of him. in the second case (lecherous actions) “I felt that this was not an easy caress. I was very unpleasant and very scared. Then I was afraid of this person and hated him.

In cases where a little girl's sexual desire is awakened by the fact that she witnessed coitus "a, it was usually the coitus of her parents. The species of coitus" a, this powerful sexual stimulant, acting, moreover, in this case in a very intriguing environment, eroticizes the little girl, igniting her with sexual feelings and longing. As a rule, the awakened sexual desire finds itself in the future outcome in masturbation.

We have already seen how the stimulus that awakens the sexual desire of a little girl usually has a double effect, one in the present, usually developing masturbation with corresponding masturbatory dreams, and the other in the future, influencing the love taste and character of an adult woman's sexual desire. In this case, this second action is apparently negative. "I do not like sexual intercourse, despite my 24 years, despite the fact that I have been waiting for this sexual intercourse for so long," women in this category. Perhaps the resulting amalgam of sexual excitement and fright, and the fact that the parents produce coitus, subsequently determine the association with an unpleasant feeling.

Sometimes the impetus for the awakening of the sexual desire of a little girl is the species coitus "a animals. But the consequences, judging by my materials, are left not so much by the impression of the seen coitus" a, but rather by the subsequent "explanations". These consequences can be divided into two groups: “I later learned the meaning from my peers. This gave me a reason to observe animals and people. I learned that my parents live like animals. 23 years old. " Overly simplified "biologization", or rather "zoologization", of human sexual relations linked sexual feelings with disgust. But there is also another situation: “The seen sexual intercourse of horses aroused in me an extraordinary curiosity. To satisfy it, I turned with the appropriate question to my mother. Mother answered me:“ These are the horses playing. ”I was not satisfied and turned to the servant with the same question. She explained to me in a completely different way with all sorts of additions, in the end she talked about her first sexual intercourse with her husband. This explanation gave a great impetus to my thoughts and even led to masturbation. "

Mechnikov once pointed out * as one of the manifestations of the disharmony of nature, the fact that sexual desire awakens much earlier than puberty. In a large number of cases, this is the case. But this, judging on the basis of our material, is far from a universal phenomenon, and, at least for girls, this is not always the case. Sex drive awakens before puberty when it is awakened. In my material, which was given by ordinary normal women, the little girl's sex drive was always of exogenous origin. The environment plays a decisive role here. In this case, the erotic stimulus must satisfy two conditions: firstly, it must be very strong (operating with the girl's sexual organ, coitus, etc.), and, secondly, it must be relatively elementary, so to speak, roughly primitive corresponding to the primitive psychology of a little girl. The awakening of sexual desire is manifested in the future either in masturbation with corresponding dreams, or in sexual intercourse with boys, and the latter is reduced to showing the genitals, coit-like actions, etc. to a large extent, her positive or negative attitude towards sexual intercourse, depending on whether the initial stimuli were pleasant or, on the contrary, unpleasant, for example, frightening, painful, etc. Even the love taste of an adult woman is influenced by these early first impressions.

* (Mechnikov I.I. (1845-1916) - an outstanding scientist in the field of biological and medical sciences, who paid much attention to the question of the general laws of the development of living nature. In this regard, he, in particular, gave an analysis of harmony and disharmony in the organic world. (See "Studies on human nature". M., 1961).)

Interestingly, in no case was it indicated that masturbation in itself led to a search for sexual intimacy, sexual dreams, etc. But in a number of cases it was indicated on the contrary, as sexual arousal caused by an external stimulus led to engaging in masturbation.

Far from trying to give a more complete psychological analysis of masturbation, since I have no material for this, I will dwell on only one question. Already in early childhood, we sometimes observe in babies manipulation of the organs of their body: this manipulation, as pleasant, is subsequently repeated deliberately. So the assumption arises (so far only as a hypothesis) that this earliest type of masturbation, which we will conditionally call simple manipulative masturbation, is associated only with an elementary sense of pleasure, but is completely devoid of sexual representations. The next type of masturbation in time is the one that can be conventionally called representing masturbation, when manipulation is associated with certain erotic dreams. This representing masturbation is no longer just mechanical, but psychological in origin and has a more complex content. Being different in origin and more consistent with the more complex psychology of the growing girl, it can be assumed that over time it replaces simple manipulative masturbation, cases of which can still be observed sometimes in young preschoolers, especially those who are deprived of upbringing: for example, in the countryside it is not so rare to see 3-4-year-old children "playing" with their genitals. This representative masturbation, characteristic of all ages except [infant], takes its nourishing dreams initially from an external awakening stimulus, and subsequent dreams, however varied they may be, often go back to this stimulus as their primary source.

IV. Let us skip now, for reasons that will become clear a little later, the early school age, the period of changing teeth, and dwell on a teenage girl who is in puberty. Her sexual psychology is strongly opposed to the sexual psychology of a little girl. Let us identify from the very beginning what is specific for a given age.

Reading girls' diaries relatively quickly picks up their peculiar pattern. [Namely,] sometimes in some recordings dissatisfaction, dissatisfaction with everyone around, heartfelt melancholy and some not very definite aspiration begin to appear very strongly. The pattern is that when such records begin to appear, there is no doubt that soon after this time other records will appear - records of love. Dissatisfaction, melancholy, longing are, as it were, a kind of introduction to the subsequent love story. This romance itself with this or that "him" does not unfold immediately either: the desire for love precedes love itself, and "he" is usually not immediately available, but is often even sought after.

Thus, a definite fall in love with a particular subject is preceded by a more or less long-term state, which could be called "being in a state of readiness to fall in love." It turns out something very similar to the process of maturation: the girl is gradually more and more ripe for falling in love. This process, as already mentioned, begins with discontent, dissatisfaction, heartfelt anguish, longing and gradually turns into a more or less intense search for "him."

External stimuli play, of course, a role, but different from that of a little girl. The little girl (let such a stereotyped image be forgiven) is a very immature bud, which unfolds a strong external influence, sometimes very rudely. A teenage girl is almost ready to bloom, and here an external stimulus (usually courtship) only awakens a mood that is already ready for awakening. The external stimulus here is no longer a strong and rough impetus, but a revealer, a developer. Therefore, it can be insignificant in its strength. There is no lack of guidance in my materials, how sometimes a small occasion, for example a kissing scene in a movie, a scene in a novel I read, powerfully awakens the strongest love emotion. Characteristically and psychologically easily explainable is the expression that is often found in the materials: "Here for the first time I felt like a woman." For example: "A young man began to pay attention to me - then I felt like a woman for the first time" or "Once he kissed me. I still remember this kiss. It left a strong impression. I then felt like a woman for the first time, and I his kiss was very pleasant. " Precisely because the girl has already matured sexually, a relatively weak erotic stimulus itself acts on her so powerfully: "I was 14-15 years old, when one unfamiliar strong man told me that I was already becoming a girl, that he has long drawn to me attention, and at the same time firmly shook my hand above the elbow, took my arm. I shivered, wanted to be indignant, but not indignant. I was incredibly hot, pleasant and a little ashamed. "

At preschool age, sexual desire is not awakened in everyone, and in those in whom it awakens at this age, this happens under the influence of a very strong stimulus in an erotic respect. On the contrary, at the age of puberty, all women have a sexual desire, and an external stimulus plays here only the role of a revealer of what is already ripe, and therefore in itself may be weak, but its effect will still be strong. This gives us the right to assert that Mechnikov's disharmony between puberty and sexual attraction, existing before puberty, is not an eternal law of nature, but only the law of an imperfect environment, accidentally or deliberately prematurely eroticizing a little girl; in a more perfect environment, this disharmony may not exist, and in such an environment, sexual desire can develop simultaneously with puberty. Even in the materials I have, 23 out of 93 [women] deny in their recollections that they have any noticeable manifestations of sexual desire before puberty. This should be recognized as the norm in the sense that this is how things happen under unfavorable conditions.

But if this is the norm, then it should be recognized as normal just that type of sexual desire, which is specific in this case. It is love that is such a type of sexual attraction, while in a little girl, sexual attraction appears primarily in a grossly sensual form.

Dedicating my other article to the psychology of love *, in this article I will only briefly note the main points of this psychology; moreover, only [insofar as] we are talking about a young girl. The first preliminary moment is already known to us: this is the period of dissatisfaction, heartfelt melancholy, languor preceding falling in love. Let's call this stage the stage of the emergence of the need for love. It is psychologically characterized by a number of painful experiences, localized mainly in the heart region. This moment is followed relatively soon by the second moment, when the girl becomes very attentive to what is related to love, and is highly sensitive to the corresponding stimuli. Let's call it a little awkwardly the stage of love sensitization. As far as could be seen from memories and diaries, this stage usually ends with several relatively light hobbies, sometimes quite insignificant, and through them passes into the next stage - falling in love, which I would prefer to call the stage of love eros, since for this stage the most characteristic is constant and a very strong desire for a loved one. Here are the lines typical of this stage of one recollection: “I was looking for his meeting, I was all burning with this desire, but when we met, I was lost, it seemed to me that the whole world was looking at me. All thoughts were focused only on him, I didn’t do science could. " The so-called first love has been described so many times in the literature that we can completely limit ourselves to just one typical example, especially since in general the memories of this among different subjects are quite similar: “I was 14-15 years old when I liked my brother's friend. I only wanted him to come to us to play together, and most importantly, that he did not pay more attention to any of the girls than to me.I was especially bored in the evenings in the summer (the situation was also favorable - a nice shady courtyard, moonlit nights) , I had no desire to play with the girls. I was infinitely glad when he and my brother came to us, but I behaved very proudly, as if not wanting to talk to him, and then I could not sleep in bed for a long time, thinking about him It was nice to hear the conversation about him. "

* (This refers to the chapter "The Psychology of Love", which is not included in this edition.)

The love of a young girl either stops at this stage - the stage of love eros, love aspiration, or passes into the next - last - stage: the stage of love communication, sexual intimacy, that is, into an actual marriage relationship. In addition to the consent of the partner, the inhibitor for the transition of love to this final stage is mainly the actual or perceived as possible disapproval of the surrounding society. Shyness, shyness, restraint, conspiracy, etc. are characteristic of a very large number of cases of love eros of a teenage girl. But where the social environment does not give hindrances, the last stage may come, that is, as the end result of coitus or its surrogates, for example, sometimes widely practiced methods of sexual intercourse without damaging hymen.

Thus, in cases where the social environment does not eroticize a little girl prematurely, but, on the other hand, does not hinder the further development of the love eros of a young girl, the following three main facts take place: 1) sexual desire develops parallel to puberty, 2 ) manifests itself in the form of love; and 3) the path to sexual intimacy goes through love.

But this is not always the case, and even, on the contrary, rarely, since the social environment, of course, is active in relation to the growing girl. Slowing down, on the one hand, the transition of a young girl's love eros to sexual intercourse (consideration of the consequences of this inhibition for a girl is beyond the scope of this article), the social environment, on the other hand, prematurely eroticizes a little girl. In this case (and such cases, when a woman is eroticized before puberty, among my subjects 2/3 of all cases) at the age of puberty, a kind of dualism is quite often obtained: the love of a young girl and her primitive rough sexual life, manifested most often in representing masturbation , form, as it were, two separate rows. On the one hand, she loves and goes through the rather stereotyped stages of girlish love; on the other hand, she masturbates and presents grossly sensual scenes. This kind of dualism sometimes proceeds peacefully: both rows do not mix, so to speak, they coexist peacefully with each other. But such a peaceful dualism is not always the case. In some cases, on the contrary, one row begins to influence the other. In my materials, the influence of the primitive sexual series on the love one was most often observed. This influence affects both the rate of development of the love process and the very nature of love. Falling in love, under appropriate conditions, tends at a fast pace to the final stage - sexual intimacy, and in love experiences, the sensual moment comes to the fore both in love dreams and in ways of attracting a love subject to oneself. On the contrary, much less often the influence of the love series on the primitive sexual one was observed. As far as could be traced, this influence was manifested in the fact that the engagement in masturbation either weakened or was accompanied by a stronger struggle against the craving for masturbation, an increase in negative emotional attitudes towards it, etc. ], so that the beloved subject somehow turns out to be the subject of masturbatory dreams.

A young girl already has well-known moral and aesthetic attitudes, which in a number of cases determine her sharply negative attitude towards coarse sensual stimuli: “Stroking my breasts frightened me, and I was indignant ... On this day I felt depressed, and I had disgust for a long time "," The kind of depraved courtship developed in me a dislike for men, fear of them, caution "," The conversations of my friends (on sexual topics) frightened me greatly, I began to cry, they got scared and stopped. "

These moral and aesthetic attitudes in the examples cited had, to a certain extent, an expediently protective value. But in some cases, their hypertrophy can lead to injury. So, one correspondent reports how the sight of the birth of kittens from her beloved cat made an amazing impression on her: subsequently, “my seven-year marriage was a continuous nightmare in the field of sexual relations due to the fear of childbirth and led in the full sense of the word to two broken lives, despite the fact that we both deeply loved each other. "

V. We allowed chronological inconsistency in our presentation, making a jump from preschool childhood to the stage of puberty at once, skipping the childhood of changing teeth. This MI did with the intention of sharpening the contrast between the two ways in which a woman's sex drive develops. The first path - the path of parallelism between puberty and the development of sexual desire - can also be called the path of endogenous development of sexual desire, since the latter develops mainly due to internal causes (the process of puberty), and in this sense this path can be considered as the normal development of sexual desire ... It goes from love to sexual intercourse. The second path is the path of prepubertal, ie, premature, development of sexual desire under the influence of mainly exogenous factors (environment); the path in a given social environment is frequent, but nevertheless it cannot be considered normal.

The period of change of teeth is intermediate between milk-toothed childhood and the stage of puberty. As such, it does not contain anything brightly specific. Sexual attraction at this age has one of the following three destinies: either it has not yet awakened in a noticeable way, or it manifests itself in a grossly primitive form, or, finally, it is early love. The girl of early school age has already grown up enough, and therefore they are more afraid of her, more shy; she has fewer occasions to witness rough erotic scenes. As if less often she is also the object of gross sexual assault. As a result, sex drive, where it is awakened, usually manifests itself only in the form of representative masturbation. It is this representative masturbation that is typical masturbation for a given age. At the same time, judging by the available materials, at this age the very technique of masturbation diversifies.

However, at this age, the erotic influence of the children's company, primarily of girlfriends, is stronger. In the same way, strongly erotic external stimuli at this age activate the girl much more. So, for example, out of 7 cases when a little schoolgirl witnessed coitus "a, in 5 cases coitus was then performed (of which in two cases with friends and in one with a brother). It can be argued that the influence of grossly erotic external stimuli is at this age it is most dangerous in the sense of a direct impact on sexual behavior.

But such cases are still not common at this age. It is characteristic in cases where the sex drive is awakened, or the aforementioned representing masturbation, or love and kissing. Let us dwell on the analysis of this early love (according to our materials, approximately 1/4 of all the first loves fall at the age of changing teeth, the rest - at the age of puberty), which develops, probably as a result of early puberty.

Most often, the subject of love is a boy. The novel usually begins with friendship: "I was very friendly with one boy, I missed him when he was not. We often ran away together, and I remember that I really liked to sit with him somewhere in a secluded corner." But often the romance of a little schoolgirl takes place in the form of "teasing" in order to attract attention to herself. For example: "I often fought, especially with one that I liked, tried to tease him, push and thus make him pay attention to me. The last resort was to take off my cap from my head and run away, and then he would catch me. caught. " In our schools, teachers often pay attention in groups where children 11-13 years old study, to cases of such "teasing" of boys by girls (and vice versa - "harassment" of boys) and consider them "bad relations" between boys and girls. It was not uncommon for teachers to turn to me for advice about these "bad relationships." We now see that this almost amorous relationship can hardly be considered bad.

I called this relationship "almost amorous" because here we are not yet dealing with the full development of love. The following recollection story can be considered typical for this early, I would say, embryonic love: "At that time I was 10-12 years old, and he was 15. Having met, we first of all had a fight. He ruined all our game plans. Then, having separated from us, he began to persecute us. with me and wants to leave here. Then I did not argue with him, but at the same time avoided him. After a while he called me with him to his room, saying that he wanted to show me the book. But instead of the book, he kissed me. I was very ashamed. For a long time I could not meet with him. Then I left (it was at the dacha). "

If in preschool childhood there is no love at all, and in girls' years its culmination in the absence of brakes is sexual intercourse, then at the age of changing teeth, the culminating point of early love is a kiss. This is usually characterized by an ambivalent reaction: on the one hand, "I wanted to scream and hit him," shame and depression, and on the other, "it was pleasant," delight, excitement. Here is a story typical for these situations: "He quietly kissed me on the back of the neck. I flushed all over, and the blood somehow rushed to my head. I got up and ran away. The rest of the evening I was not myself: some kind of delight and extraordinary After several days I was kind of grievously killed, and it seemed to me that some very bad thing had happened. I still met this boy with great pleasure, but at the same time I was hiding from him. "

Kiss and lovemaking in general at this age play the role of a strong pathogen. It seems to speed up the development of the girl's love attraction somewhat, accelerates and enhances this development. “Seeing kisses, I wanted the same thing, but until the age of 14 I was afraid that a child would be born from a kiss,” “I tried to find myself a boy who would take my hand in the same way” - such memories often appear in my materials.

The first mention of homosexuality belongs to the same age. I have too little material for more or less broad conclusions, but something can still be asserted, however, not so for the purpose of theoretical generalizations, but rather in the order of posing the problem.

The mentioned cases of homosexuality at this age fall sharply into two completely different groups. The first group - crudely primitive sexual actions between girls, consisting mostly in the reproduction of seen or heard coitus "a. This is a kind of experimentation, and it is characteristic that in no case did I come across indications of the duration of such activities. This gives reason to bring such experimentation closer together. with such phenomena as mutual examination of the genitals, with the name of their special names or teaching a friend to masturbate. It is not clear to me whether all this can be attributed to homosexuality. I have no facts indicating that this served to the further development of homosexuality.

The situation is completely different with another group of cases where homosexuality is already beyond doubt. All these cases represent a little schoolgirl falling in love with a woman, and in my materials this woman has always been an adult and almost always (except for two cases) a girl's teacher, and the fall in love itself, or rather the reason for it, is eccentric, extraordinary. So, in one case, a girl falls in love with a pregnant teacher, moreover, so that "I saw her off and met and, I confess, was ready to kiss the hem of her clothes"; in another case, the girl was struck by the lush breasts and arms of a naked teacher she had accidentally seen, etc. At the next age (the stage of puberty), cases of homosexual love become relatively frequent (much more often than at any other age of life), but the object falling in love here is most often a friend.

Vi. In general, two types of development of sexual desire can be distinguished - premature and suo tempore *. Premature development occurs exclusively under the influence of the external environment. This environment is far from indifferent in this regard to the little girl. Often she is aggressive towards the girl: she is encouraged to exhibitionism and sexual play by older boys, she is corrupted by her friends, and finally, sometimes she is aroused sexually, consciously or unconsciously, by adult men. But even where the environment is not sexually aggressive towards the child, she is sometimes careless with him, shameless, making the little girl a witness to the most erotic scenes. Where we have a premature awakening of sexual desire in a girl, the cause should be sought primarily in external stimuli, and not in the problematic "hypersexual constitution". These stimuli are usually very real and relatively easy to detect, while the notorious constitution is still only a hypothesis, hypothetical X. Even masturbation at this age, which is very different from the simple manipulative masturbation of babies, has a certain external stimulus from the genetic basis of its dreams.

* (Suo tempore (lat.) - in a timely manner, in due time.)

This premature development of sex drive has a number of harmful psychological consequences, not to mention physical harm. In the event that the stimulus-awakening aroused a negative emotion, subsequently develop sexual phobias, aversion to sexual intercourse, etc. If, on the contrary, this stimulus was pleasant, the craving for premature sexual intercourse develops, so to speak, becomes primitive, becomes more primitive , later on, more elementary love, thereby losing its complex cultural content. Thus, the issue of organizing a sexually healthy environment for a child is an acute issue.

In the event that this environment does not prematurely eroticize the girl, her sexual desire awakens endogenously at the age of puberty, moreover, not in grossly primitive forms of elementary sexual desire, but in the form of love. At first, it develops vaguely at first, then a more clearly perceived need for love. This need entails a little later the search for the object of love and, upon finding it, falling in love. Thus, the stages of love need, love sensitization and search for love eros (striving) and under appropriate conditions of sexual intimacy, are passed through consistently with internal necessity. The environment plays an incomparably lesser role here. Her main role here is not an awakener, since the need for love awakens mainly due to internal reasons. But this does not mean that her role here is generally insignificant. It influences partly on the formation of love taste, more precisely, on its individual characteristics. In addition, it plays the role of a brake on the passage of love through the above stages, especially the last two. By appropriately organizing the environment, we can influence in one way or another both the course of love and the choice of the object of love.

Vii. An analysis of the girl's most vivid sexual impressions makes it possible to form, to a certain extent, an idea of ​​the development of child sexuality.

Once Metchnikov considered one of the types of disharmony in nature to be disharmony between puberty and a long before awakening sexual desire. He considers this disharmony as a law of nature. In fact, there is no such law of nature: in almost a third of the women I surveyed, sexual desire was awakened only during puberty.

Normally, sexual desire awakens only during puberty. We have this normal situation in a number of cases. But just as cases of perfectly healthy people are not frequent, so these normal cases are also not frequent. There are more of them in sexually healthy environments and few in sexually inauspicious environments. Therefore, the frequency of these cases varies greatly depending on the conditions of the girl's upbringing - the degree of her inactivity, living conditions, behavior with her and with her, the conditions of her bedroom, etc. In some conditions, all 100% of girls in preschool age may already have sexual a life. But it is quite conceivable that in other conditions such girls could be 0%.

It is abnormal if sexual activity (including sexual desire) appears before puberty. "Abnormal" means that this only happens under the influence of extraordinary external stimuli or in cases subject to psychopathology. Very strong erotic stimuli are needed in order for a young preschooler to awaken sexual desire. In the vast majority of girls' cases, this is either a direct effect (in one form or another) on their genitals, or a sharply erotic scene. The stimulus is strong in an erotic sense, but primitive.

Sexually, the preschool girl is still quite primitive, both because of her sexual immaturity and because of her general underdevelopment. Therefore, it is excited only by strong and primitive stimuli. She reacts primitively to these stimuli - masturbation or heteroerotic acts.

In contrast to masturbation in the earliest childhood, masturbation in preschool age is more difficult from a psychological point of view. The psychological scheme of early childhood masturbation: masturbation + pleasure. It is just a pleasant procedure, at first, in all likelihood, of peripheral origin, and then gradually turning into a pleasant habit. However, I shy away from solving the question of how accustomed masturbation is at this age, that is, it is already becoming a habit, since I do not have sufficient factual material. Perhaps it is possible, in the form of a hypothesis to be tested, to assume that at this age the habit of masturbation is not yet stable. The grounds for such a hypothesis: 1) this age is generally characterized by a comparative instability of habits (the child easily weaning), 2) an external stimulus and therefore easier to eliminate.

The psychological scheme of masturbation in preschool age turns out to be different: erotic performance + masturbation = pleasure. Here the stimulus is already central (performance). As long as this performance is alive (and it is now and then revived by the memory, now and then it is reproduced), there will be an incentive to masturbate. If masturbation in the earliest childhood was prompted by an elementary feeling, a simple pleasure from masturbation, and the object of influence was the external genital organs, then in preschool age the erotic imagination comes to the fore and the genitals are first excited from the inside under the influence of this imagination. Thus, here sexual arousal is no longer peripheral, but of central origin. Hence the conclusion: if in the earliest childhood measures against masturbation are exclusively of a physical nature, then at preschool age these measures alone are not enough, measures of a psychological nature are also needed.

Where the matter is not limited only to masturbation, there are, usually in the absence of supervision and at the initiative of older children, and other sexual acts. Most often this is either imitation in one form or another of sexual intercourse, or passive exhibitionism. These imitations are usually a kind of sexual imitative play, sometimes rather (but not very) complex dramatization (for example, the famous sex games of "dad" and "mom"). The role of imitation is obvious here. Passive exhibitionism is what I call a girl showing her genitals at the request of her playmates (for example, the famous sexual game of "doctor"). Thus, sexual responses at this age are primitive and grossly sensual. This is easily explained by the fact that the psychology of a preschool girl is still quite primitive in general.

The initial stimulus of child sexuality at this age is external. In the future, this sexuality is supported either by the feeling of pleasure experienced as a result of the corresponding procedures, or also by imagination and memory. But what psychological experiences, on the contrary, prevent the development of sexual behavior at this age? Almost from the very beginning, fear is added to the sexual experiences of a little girl, then when she herself or people close to her become the subject of rough sexual attacks, then when she is afraid of discovering forbidden sexual games. This is either the fear of an attack, which she can sometimes imagine as a sexual attack on her or people close to her, or the fear of being caught during a forbidden action. Somewhat later, as the social behavior and consciousness of the little girl develops, shame begins to come first, then disgust, a complex feeling, the main component of which, according to Ben *, is fear and hatred. Fear of an encroachment on her body, fear of social repression (punishment, condemnation, etc.), and sometimes hatred of the invader - these are, judging by the material I have, those basic experiences that paralyze sexual pleasure at a given age. If we define fear as an emotional reaction to an impending trouble, and hatred as an emotional attitude of struggle with the source of trouble, then from a genetic point of view, such an evolution of sexuality can be represented as a paralysis of sexual pleasure by anticipating the associated troubles. An amalgam of sexual arousal and fear is common at this age.

* (Ben, Alexander (1818-1903) - English philosopher and psychologist, one of the representatives of associative psychology. He studied the laws of mental processes, emotions and will, feelings and intellect. A number of his works have been translated into Russian. lang .: "On the study of character." SPb., 1866; "Psychology", v. 1-2. M., 1902-1906, etc.)

Although the material at my disposal is insufficient for a completely categorical statement, it nevertheless gives some reason to suppose that the sexuality of a little girl, aroused from the outside by a strong erotic stimulus, to a certain extent subsides if it is not supported by appropriate stimuli from outside. If I may put it that way, the child begins to forget this impression, the memory of it weakens and already ceases to eroticize the child. In this case, sexual experiences turn out to be a transient episode in the life of a preschool girl: the erotic environment stimulated her, but then, if there is no such influence of the environment, the girl begins to live a life normal for a given age. According to the testimony of some of the subjects, even the masturbation that had arisen stopped in them.

In this case, even that active "search" for an erotic stimulus, a sexual object, which is characteristic of a later age, is not observed. This "seeking" usually occurs only in the first time after the primary stimulus: the child seeks not to sleep and to spy on the parents' sexual intercourse in the common bedroom, starts sexual games, etc. But if the environment no longer provides nutrient material for a considerable time, such active attempts seem to freeze.

But unfortunately, there are, of course, such cases when the environment gives the child the opportunity to have sexual stimuli and receive appropriate satisfaction. Then sexual experiences become habitual, more or less constant, moreover, in an elementary sensory form. It is characteristic that all the women interviewed by me at the beginning of this article, leading a sexually promiscuous lifestyle, had just such a preschool childhood.

VIII. We have already shown above that primary school age is sexually transitional in the sense that we find here either primitive sensory manifestations of sexuality, as in preschoolers, or falling in love, similar to adolescence. In the second case, we have, as it were, an early, premature awakening of love.

I chose 10 very intellectually developed women, moreover, those who, according to them, were intellectually superior to their peers in childhood, and asked about the time of their first love. I did the same for 10 women who are intellectually dumb. In my inquiries, I carefully emphasized that this is about falling in love, and not about simple sexual intercourse. As a result, it turned out that the first love took place in pre-adolescence in 6 women of the first category and only in one - the second category. Based on this, it can be assumed that falling in love, as a relatively complex experience, presupposes a certain degree of mental development, but the latter is, of course, not the only condition. On the other hand, in my little material, I did not find any noticeable connection between primitive-sensual sexuality in primary school age and mental development. Often this sexuality was a continuation of similar sexuality in preschool years.

The comparatively complex erotica of love and kissing, characteristic of adolescence and sometimes of prepubertal childhood, is apparently not connected by a continuous thread of development with the primitive-sensual sexuality of a young age. In ontogenetic evolution, the roots of love branch out in more complex phenomena than primitive sexual sensibility. At the same time, as the sexuality of a little girl is usually the product of erotic influences from the environment, love is, rather, a product of maturation, and it is not the environment that plays the main role here: if for a little girl a strong sexual impression usually bursts in from the outside, as it were, impromptu completely unprepared, then in a teenage girl the need for love, the willingness to fall in love, usually precede love itself.

A teenage girl herself is aware in the vast majority of cases of the difference between feelings of love and primitive sensual sexual experiences. Moreover, she often experiences this difference as antagonism. It is typical for many adolescent girls that it is at this age that the need for love and falling in love develops in parallel, on the one hand, and a sharply negative attitude (most often in the form of disgust) to sexual attacks from other persons. More and more, the path of love is becoming the only path to sex. Since in the future I devote a special study to the psychology of love, now I do not go into the details of young love.

Erotic dreaming and erotic conversations are also typical for this age. Dreams are of both love and primitive sensory content. Love dreams, judging by retrospective stories and diaries, by their content are usually either fantasies of love luck (sometimes about death - about posthumous, so to speak, luck, for example, when a loved one regrets her), or repeated memories, as it were again experience in different variations of different cases of closeness to the object of love. Usually these dreams occur in the sphere of consciousness (at least in normal ones), only occasionally descending into the sphere of a half-asleep state and even a dream. As for dreams of primitive sensory content, on the contrary, they most often occur when they are in dreams or (less often) in a half-asleep state and are experienced by a girl (at least the one in whom sexual experiences first appeared only in adolescence) not as a product of her conscious will, but [as] something with which her will should even fight, at least as something involuntary. In a fully awake state, these dreams are usually associated with masturbation.

Analyzing the sexual experiences of a teenage girl, we come across falling in love as the most common type of these experiences at a given age. But the analysis of early love would be easier to produce if a general psychological analysis of love had been made earlier. Unfortunately, psychological science does not differ in the quantity and quality of such analyzes. Therefore, we need to make it ourselves, so that then, against the background of a general psychological analysis of love, we deeper and more clearly consider the peculiarity of the adolescent's love.

IX. But before parting with the topic of this article, a few more issues should be touched upon. In almost every popular book on sexuality, much attention is paid to children's issues of human origins. In my material, I have not found a single case when this question would arise in a child in connection with sexual experiences. For a young child, this is not a sexual question, but a scientific one; it is based not on sexual, but on an ordinary theoretical interest in origins. In an adult, such an interest would lead to acquaintance, to one degree or another, with embryology or obstetrics. But for a child, the question of origin is not a question of growth and development, but (in the vast majority of cases) a question of origin in the local sense: "Where did I (or a newly born child, etc.) come from, did I come from?" This question is not sexual in itself, but as a result of the explanations that the child happens to receive. The environment (girlfriends, nanny, etc.) often uses this question of the child for erotic conversations with him about coitus, and sometimes for direct corruption.

In the same way, the species coitus "a of domestic animals does not in itself eroticize a child who is not yet aware of the meaning of this act, but only arouses interest and a question in him.

But again, here, the same environment often uses this issue for erotic conversations with a child. The already "enlightened" child is a different matter: this kind of animals sometimes slightly eroticizes.

Freudianism greatly exaggerated and, to a certain extent, distorted the sexual nature of children's studies of gender differences, at least in relation to girls. In my material, there is not a single case when the discovery of the gender difference would eroticize the girl in itself. The erotization of the girl in such cases takes place in a completely different context. Most often and more intensely, this eroticization occurs not when the girl recognizes (sees) the sexual difference between the boy, but, on the contrary, when the boys recognize (see) her sexual difference. To put it more clearly and more accurately, when she (her genitals) is the subject of examination. In those cases when she is active here, the latter consists in the proposal to consider her. The girl is eroticized incomparably less often and weaker as not an object, but a subject of examination.

Likewise, judging by the testimony of the respondents, the first menstruation for a girl is more of a medical or aesthetic issue, rather than a sexual one.

A shocking incident in the village of Elovka showed how cruel and cynical children can be

In the village of Elovka, Irkutsk region, children brutally abused five-year-old Masha. The child's nightmare lasted at least three hours. The girl was dragged into the forest and forced to strip naked. Then, frightening Masha with the spirit of a dead woman, the schoolgirls realized their sexual and sadistic fantasies. The little girl was made to swear that she would not tell anyone about what was happening in the forest for several hours. But the girl did not keep her word and told the adults where she had bruises and scratches all over her body.

“She didn't go. We dragged her "

Eleven-year-old Yulia and nine-year-old Sasha have been friends since childhood. On that Monday, August 11, the girls decided to take a walk in the village. Five-year-old Slavik and Masha went with them. The girls did not like Masha. Especially, according to adults, Julia did not like her. The girl, as they themselves admit, often did not obey them, could call them, hit them. When the plan matured, which the girls eventually carried out, it is difficult to understand from their confused story. Sasha and Yulia talk about what happened in the forest, taking turns, bickering, incriminating each other in lies, sometimes getting confused in the chronicle of events and embarrassed when pronouncing "adult" words.

We went to bathe the dogs on the bridge, - the older girl Julia begins the story, - and then we climbed the mountain, into the forest. Masha went with us, we didn't call her. And then we decided to go to the forest. Masha did not want to go, we dragged her ourselves. The girls, as they say, took the child in their arms and dragged him into the forest. Masha began to resist, slippers fell off her, but it was decided to finish what she had begun. “I let her go, but Yulia held her,” says Sasha. - It was Yulina's idea - to take her to the forest.

The idea to do this came to Yulia's head, according to her, on Sunday. Then she once again quarreled with little Masha and hit her. For this, the mother of the child scolded Julia. This was the main complaint against Masha. After all, the child promised not to tell his mother about the fight. Looking ahead, let us say that it was not Masha who "handed over" the hooligan, but the neighbor who saw all this.

Julia began to ask Masha why she told her mother everything, - Sasha retells the forest events. - Then I pushed her and slapped her on the head. Masha fell down and began to cry.

Adult games

The girls began to scare the child with a "white woman". In the village, for naughty children, they invented a legend about a dead girl, whose spirit wanders around the neighborhood in search of a groom. Older children already understand that this is a fiction, but this had an impact on Masha.

Turning away from the child, the girls passed on the demands of the "white woman". “First, the white woman said that now there will be a trial,” they say. Masha cried, but meekly fulfilled the girls' demands.

First, Masha had to take off her dress. Then the "white woman", under the threat of not letting the girl go home, forced the child to undress completely. “Slavka carried her things, and I took Tuzik,” Sasha recalls. - Masha did not want to go further, but we said that there will be another trial. " The girl was brought to the stump and forced to pretend to be the pleasure “women get during sex,” explains Sasha's mother.

Then we said that you need to go to bed with a cross. Masha did not know how it was, we showed her.

The girls demonstrate that they had to lie on the ground with their arms and legs outstretched. All this time Masha was stripped and barefoot. They did not give her things, they did not offer her to dress - much was still ahead. Julia, according to Sasha, forced the child to crawl on all fours, dragged her by the hair, forced to eat mushrooms found in the forest. This was followed by even more sophisticated "torture". Later Slava and Julia urinated into Masha's mouth. “Masha almost choked, she was crying. I was scared to watch, ”says Sasha.

Then other knowledge about sexual life was applied ... A little time later, Yulia tried to set fire to Masha's legs with a lighter, which was taken from home - nothing happened. Then Yulia, according to Sasha (Yulia did not deny anything), pushed the girl to the ground, began to kick and walk on her, beat her with a stick.

Then the children showered Masha with branches and sticks. At that moment a man was passing through the forest. The girls and Slava hid behind the bushes, Masha went unnoticed under a bunch of branches.

Sorry and not sorry

Sasha offered to let the girl go: “I said that Masha was in pain, and Yulia said:“ I don't care ”.

Julia, and you were not sorry for Masha, she was crying?

Yes, it's a pity, but not a pity either. Fifty-fifty, says the 11-year-old schoolgirl.

From the girls' stories it becomes clear that Julia was the initiator of everything - Julia put forward demands, Julia told what to do for Sasha, Julia beat the child more often and more painfully, Julia directed the actions of little Slava, hung the child on a "bungee". The girl herself did not deny this and even added details. “Then Yulia realized that Mom's car would kill us,” and the girls came up with a story: Masha had to say that her six-year-old neighbor beat her like that.

The whole village is shocked by the actions of the girls, whom everyone knows as good guys, diligent schoolgirls. Parents of girls clutch their heads - why such dirt in their children, brought up in love, affection, prosperity. Parents, each in their own way, punished their daughters for this nightmare to which they subjected the five-year-old baby, and now they are waiting for the arrival of the police.

Let them come and ask them, - Sasha's mother is militant. - And how else to explain to them that what happened does not fit into any framework! How to punish them, how to convey them? It's a shame - I want to sink into the ground. I try not to go to the village at all: my daughter did this!

Aren't you afraid that now you will be registered with the commission on juvenile affairs? - we asked the little criminals.

Scary, - the girls answer rather indifferently, most likely not understanding the seriousness of the act.

The mother with the injured girl went to the hospital, the beatings were removed. They say that the baby has bruises and scratches all over her body. It is now difficult even for doctors to say how the incident will affect the further mental development of the child.

P.S. All surnames have been changed.

How will they be punished

Yulia Vereshchagina, media inspector of the Internal Affairs Directorate of the Irkutsk region:

Now this fact is being checked, which will last ten days. Girls suspected of a crime will be invited to a commission at the Irkutsk District Internal Affairs Directorate. No doubt they will be registered. The material is in production, but it is already known that the fact of setting the child on fire has not been confirmed.

Can't do without adults

Oksana Savchuk, psychologist at the Institute of Pediatrics and Reproduction, Senior Researcher:

Sex and aggression are some of the basic human needs. Every child has them. An adult is able to control both sexual and aggressive needs, while in a child the ability to modify "direct" desires must be developed by parents in childhood. Adults must explain what is good and what is bad, what is allowed and what is not. The most important thing is that certain prohibitions are stable, so that the surrounding adults behave as they teach the child to.

Only then will inner morality appear in the little man. It is imperative to control the video that the child is watching: check the discs that he brings home, watch what he watches on TV. So that the child does not receive information on his weak psyche that he cannot cope with.

Who are they

Svetlana Ponomareva, school teacher in the village of Elovka:

This is a big shock for us. After all, both girls grow up in prosperous families. Sasha has a full family, Yulia is raised by her mother, grandmother and grandfather. It is surprising that in this situation, the ringleader, let's say, was Julia. Although at school, on the contrary, she looks more like a "driven" girl. Sasha, on the other hand, is a child with strong convictions. But in this situation, apparently, age played a role - Julia is older and somewhere bolder.

Not the first time

Julia says that this is not the first time she tortured a girl. Two years ago, with the help of a friend, she lowered her into the cesspool of the toilet. And then, to wash the child, she dipped it into a barrel of water.

"Do not tell anybody"

Taking an oath that Masha will not tell anyone what happened, continuing to poke and humiliate, the company returned home. The baby rushed to her family, the girls fled to their homes. A few minutes later, all the events became known to Masha's mother. The woman rushed to look for the offenders - dragged Julia by the ear. Note, now, after a few days, the girls are again playing together on a pile of sand. “We asked for forgiveness from Masha, and she forgave us,” they say. It remains to be hoped that the child's consciousness will erase everything that happened from the head.

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The information about the rapist stepfather caused a response from many users on the social network. The children were silent because they were afraid for their mother's life. This story prompted the screenwriter Svetlana Taiko share your experiences on social media. Open and free. Her story caused a flurry of comments and reviews. Without knowing it, Sveta opened an abscess. Thank her for that. Yes, this topic is unpleasant, it is inconvenient, and we try not to think about it. Apparently, in vain. Svetlana told SakhaDay that many began to write to her:

“All these beautiful, successful, funny girls - mothers, wives, single - all have their own wound. The women have blocked all these memories in their memory and try not to think about them. Almost every woman is a surviving girl with her own story. "

Below are the stories of Svetlana herself and the stories sent to her by users of the social network. Story # 1. Uncle Yasha is not a rapist, but a mischief I AM I don't know what types of pedophiles are divided into, but Uncle Yasha was not a rapist. He was one of those mischievous people who rubbed themselves into trust and draw into the game. O neither moved from somewhere and became our neighbors. Our mothers were classmates, so they became close to us. An atypical family for me at that time: mom Sakha, dad Bashkir, eldest daughter from Sakha's first marriage and youngest from Bashkir. It was a very cheerful family, my mother's classmates began to gather. Just moved - so many get-togethers. I, a 10-year-old, were brought together with the eldest - people of the same age should be friends, they said. We became friends. The only snag was that she was Russian-speaking, like everyone else in their family. She studied at a Russian school. But it's also for the best - practice. WITH Over time, I began to understand that the eldest was their housekeeper and nanny for the younger. Her day was filled with housekeeping and childcare. This did not stop us from making time for games, parents were at work all day, and she dragged around with the youngest and, like any girl, played children's games with us. By evening, her house was tidied up, dinner was ready, her sister was clean and well-fed. Have She did not do well, she was left for the second year, honestly - she lagged behind in knowledge, she did not read books, she was really stupid, she had a learning disruption. Yes, it was impossible to consult with her about the lessons and share her opinion about what she read, but she knew how to bleach linen and how long to cook spaghetti P From time to time she fell into a stupor. Freezes and looks at one point. And universal sadness in this look. I remember one conversation. She sits and says: - you are happy, Svetka. - yes, and what? - nicho. You are happy. Svetka-white-handed. I looked at my hands ...

O Once on the beach, she offered to play a gynecologist. And we all played with pleasure and interest. Sand, leaves, twigs, a mirror were used. She taught how to play, but the children did not understand that this was a wake-up call - someone had already played this "wonderful" game with her. These are not commonplace mothers and daughters.

V She was a ruin - science fiction writers would be envious. She had no friends at school. But it was perceived by me simply - someone who favors a beginner, plus there are not enough stars from the sky, does not shine with beauty, intelligence, talent, charisma, sociability. And she became close to me in the neighborhood, and my parents were friends. And my personal friends did not like her. She is strange and no match M she adored her skinny hairy goggle-eyed hubby, blew away dust particles. The youngest daughter is the same goggle-eyed and skinny. Capricious queen. The eldest took care of her, but at times beat her while her parents were away, not like a child, and she — helpless — cried bitterly. Then she calmed and persuaded not to knock on her parents, and she would do something to her, fulfill her whim. She agreed and turned her older sister. It was amazing for me, I didn't care about my sister, but I never hit.

M she worked at a gas station, was on duty. And then the children stayed with dad. Uncle Yasha was a cool dude - he always willingly played with children, fiddled with them, dragged around with them. Very kind. And when my mother went on duty, my friend invited me to spend the night with her. It should be noted that my dad is stern, he never played with us, did not spoil us, he won’t take us on his knees, he won’t hug us, he won’t kiss us. Never. We had a discrepancy with him. And Uncle Yasha is so cool! It's so much fun with him! It has so many games, you can ride it, you can jump on it

AND so I went to them with the night. It was a lot of fun. I liked spending the night with them. I liked my dad even more than my girlfriend. She was simple-minded, narrow-minded, and their dad - so attentive, kind, amused, fed. My dad, why should he feed me? And I often visited them. Dad slept with the youngest, and my girlfriend and I

O the other day - such an entertainer - when, as he believed, I had already fallen under his influence, I offered to play "nakidashki". The girlfriend doubted, they consulted each other with their eyes, then decided - I will understand and be imbued with. I realized that this is a creepy, what an interesting game for the initiated

B It was claimed to be a secret game that should not be told to anyone. It will be our secret. The perky look of her friend suggested that the game was indeed groovy. And I agreed - I always dreamed of playing with my dad, but it never happened. And Uncle Yasha is such a merry fellow! Remember, there were capes - like tulle on a pillow, incredible beauty, a rustic interior feature AND it was necessary to play at night, going to bed. The three-year-old baby fell asleep. We also went to bed. All were given capes and flashlights. It turned out that these are ordinary hide-and-seek, only you need to hide naked, wrapped in a cloak. I didn’t like the idea of ​​taking off my panties, but (!) Didn’t scare me in any way. Everyone is cheerful, so the game is worth it. But she resolutely refused to undress and remained in her children's yellow panties. WITH I had to start looking for Uncle Yasha. With a flashlight. Through the dark big house. At this point, the understanding came that I did not want to find him. Just not to find, just not to find. But I continue to walk around the house and fumble with a lantern. And then a cheerful cry of a girlfriend: Svetkaaa, hvataaaai, here he is! Here! V from he slipped past in a cape, so he ran to the bed, so his girlfriend grabs him and knocks him down on the bed. Calls me: help me, help me, come here! I walk on wadded feet in this stupid cape and see that my friend is lying on my stepfather and has the main goal of ripping off the cape from him. There is laughter and fun all around. Help me, pull, pull, shine a flashlight! I direct the light, look at a hitherto unseen hapsagai and stand in a stupor. This horrible hairy naked body touches my friend who is 10 years old. I feel bad, especially because she likes it. She throws herself at him and tries to grab him between his legs, and I accidentally see a huge black hairy monster there. He seems to fight back, bursts into laughter. The girlfriend got to the goal of the game, shone a lantern and shouted: I won! I won. E If she screamed and asked for help, everything would be within my understanding. And she was worn, and it was not inserted in a childish way. The game that she played for a long time. And my perception of the world got confused. I could not understand in this short time where the norm is and which of us is normal.

TO As in any game of hide and seek, she was now hiding. After a while, squeals and fuss began under the parental bed. They were definitely having fun. The girlfriend fought back, kicked, but did not cry, but laughed. Such a game. I was the only one left. Where? Where to hide? I began to run in the dark, and not huddle in a corner. In this stupid cape and yellow panties with thin legs. Winter is on the street. I move in small dashes around the house - and lo! He grabs me and knocks me down on the bed

T small, hairy, small, starts trying to pull off the cape, I kick, joyful girlfriend shines with a lantern. He gets to the cowards, and I understand that this is the end of the world. End of the World. Under the light of a flashlight AND then something went wrong in their gaming life. I'm getting hysterical. Howl. Tears. The youngest wakes up. Starts to howl too. Everyone wilted in one fell swoop, ruined such a game.

V turn on the light. I don't know what types of pedophiles are divided into, but Uncle Yasha was not a rapist, judging by this moment. He is one of the mischievous people who is rubbed into trust and drawn into the game.

P In the middle of the night I began to get ready for home, but they didn’t let me in - Uncle Yasha locked the door. I could not stop and cried, and only fell asleep in the morning. He did not get angry, did not beat, but tried to calm her down. My friend is generally confused, clearly thinks that I am strange. In the morning I wake up, he is fussing in the kitchen. It's already light, I have to go to school. We must let go, soon their mother will come. Uncle Yasha sits down at the table. I made scrambled eggs with sausage, poured tea. Dad never did that to me. But everything is already perceived differently

I AM I sit, unable to move. And then Uncle Yasha falls to his knees and really cries! He takes my hands in his hairy sinful hands and kisses them, crying. I'm sorry, I'm sorry! Don't tell your parents anything, promise you won't. Your dad will kill me right away - do you want him to go to jail? So that you, because of me, a freak, remain orphans? Do you know what a prison is? He will die there. And my children and wife? They will be disgraced, how can they live after that? Aunt Lyuba will kill herself, and the children will be orphans. And you can do all this. And how will you live after that? You misunderstood everything, it seemed to you, and if you say it, then all this will be on your conscience.

AND I did not say. I couldn't take on so many deaths at once. But my behavior has changed. My interests have changed. My drawings have changed. I stopped going to them. I really wanted my parents to find out for themselves. But they were slightly over 30, they have their own affairs from morning to evening. One day they found my sex comics behind a mirror in a crack on the wall and ... laughing at me. I came home, on the table - painted by me naked man and woman. Mom and Dad ask what it is, what a terrible girl I am, I won't go to the movies anymore. But something prevented them from digging deeper? A what happened to that girl and this family, you ask. At some point, Aunt Lyuba began to send the eldest to her relatives on her watch. I will never believe that she had no idea about the freak with whom she shared the bed. And one day they all left for Tatarstan to rest in his homeland. They brought Aunt Lyuba in a zinc coffin. They said she drowned. And I, you know, do not believe in it. I can still see wet hairy hands in the water. A man normally lives out his life this way, we do not judge The fate of the children is not known to me. We have already moved to another location. And I chose not to think about them. And in my life, after that incident to figure it out - and that is success. Story number 2. Rapist stepfather M We moved and my mother took me to a new school. As I remember now, I opened the door and pushed, there was an English lesson. I am already 13 years old, with my own meager, but baggage of experience. I've already smoked, I've seen enough of adult films. Immediately noticed the girl - sooo beautiful. I think such people then come out on the podiums. She's probably the queen of the school. What is there! From the very first change, I realized that the attitude towards her was strange. The girls avoided her (envy, I thought), the boys tortured her like a boy (they pay attention, I thought). TO My queen became attached to me from the first minute. I was already surprised. We started going to and from school together. She talked about a certain sayylyk - according to her stories, it turned out that this was heaven on earth. Here, in the village, it’s not life, but maybe it’s in the sayylyk! I have never been there and imagined that it was like Moscow, New York - something unattainable. She was in no hurry to go home. I wanted to communicate all the time, sitting on the shore. And to communicate, as it turned out very quickly, there is nothing. Have She was bad, slowed down, did not understand elementary things, took up my time, and soon she got sick of me - she stopped seeing beauty. I understand men who are led on the outside, but pass a verdict: a dummy, and leave. Having mastered, I left. And she was left alone again. I remember she dressed cleanly, but she smelled bad. The body smelled like an outcast. You know, skunks give off a stench to protect themselves, and people do that. If there is no other way.

O on, too, periodically fell into a stupor. Freeze. This was similar to the first girl. And then there was fear in the glass eyes. But when you are a child, you have no time for other people's problems. With their own to figure it out. I didn't really understand what was wrong with her. I thought it’s not mine, I’m not interested in her. And three years later she was pregnant. And almost after her - her own sister. Her sister also lagged behind in her studies, she also did not know how to be with children. And only then they had to admit that their stepfather, an asshole, had raped them for many years! And everyone knew about it, they could not help but know !!! And if the girls had not become pregnant and given birth, then there would have been no publicity.

E he was convicted. They say that he was released a long time ago, he lives. Story number 3. Father's friend E That story was sent to Sveta by a friend.

“She is fragile, beautiful, so - just take care and carry in her arms, pamper, mother, wife,” - Svetlana wrote about the author of the letter.

"P I read these stories and remembered what happened to me. When I was 5 years old, my mother and father and I lived in a private house next to my father's friend, who lived with his elderly mother. All the children of our street went to visit them, as this grandmother gave sweets to the children. Her son, dad's friend, was a KamAZ driver and often drove us around in his car.

P she hid his face only in places. But I remember his hands and how he touched me "there" when I went to them. How he showed his "it" and told me to touch him.

V I remembered all this only years later, when I came to my dad's house and his friends were there. And dad said, do you remember (his name), he drove you to KamAZ as a child ... I had a hysterics, I laid out everything about it right there! And this man began to deny everything, and dad got angry, said that this could not be! And I just wanted to "believe" in it, because I don't want to remember it. But I think that I am not the only one who remembers this, since there were a lot of children on our street. Now I am writing this and my hands are shaking. There is a sediment and a result from this, I don’t want to write what it is, I’m just ashamed to admit it. " Story number 4. Uncle A story from Nadezhda: "WITH a small step, today I think about these children all day and I also remembered an episode from my life, which it turns out I buried far away. I was visiting my aunt at their dacha (I think I was 11-12 years old, hardly less), went up to the second floor, and there her husband was sitting (then he was 50 years old) and he called to him, began to ask about what to touch the chest ... I got scared and ran downstairs.

She didn't tell anyone - she didn't want to upset her aunt.

Now I understand that, thank God, I didn't go to them with the night. I told my mother about this episode later when I grew up. There was no reaction from her, it seems she was saddened and did not know what to do. " Story number 5. Stepfather Also from those sent to Sveta: " M not over 30. No children. There were no sensible relationships with men either. Although I am an adequate, caring and beautiful woman. When my relationship fell apart again, I went to a psychologist. Deal with your cockroaches. I went to a trance course. I thought I would lie like this in a hypnotic trance and understand what I was doing wrong in my personal life. But in fact she was shouting to the whole audience: "Mom, I hate you, bitch" ... Surprisingly, but not because I suddenly remembered the reason for this hatred. It’s surprising that this pain is still in me, it turns out. Pain from her betrayal. WITH some years ago ... I'm 22. I still live with my mother, sister and stepfather. It's just that their relationship is not yet. And to be honest - I am a home girl. I still can't go out after 21:00. Total control in everything. Mom protects me. We live together. I look after everyone. Mom and stepfather are careerists. They have no time. I'm doing my homework with my sister. I'm cooking. I keep my house and family wardrobe clean (the school of everyday life is excellent: even now I can iron 10 men's shirts in just 30-40 minutes). Everything is fine. We are happy family. Once we went to an anniversary to our relatives. My parents drank funny - they are dancing, having fun. We are going home in the same high spirits. Mom goes to bed right away. Sister is watching TV. I'm going to shower. Stepfather smokes in the kitchen. Stops me and says something like this:

“You are the woman of my dreams. Beautiful, smart, clean. I've waited so long for you to grow up. I waited. I want us to be together at last. ” And there, in peace and safety, with beer, I was covered ... And I remembered ...

H that was some years ago. I am 11 or 12 ... New Year's at the friends of my mother and her boyfriend (then he was not her husband yet). I want to sleep, and we are going to sleep in his apartment, on his territory. Mom and I sleep on the same bed. He's on the floor. But at some point he wakes up and (through my mother !!!) begins to touch me. Everywhere. THERE. I'm numb. I move away, pressing myself into the wall. I understand that my mother is not sleeping. I don’t understand how long she has been listening to this. Finally, she pulls him back. Then, after a couple of days, she makes him apologize to me. He stands huge, about 2 meters tall, smelling of expensive cologne, in an ironed shirt, a handsome man, by the way, and asks for forgiveness. And my mother whispers in her ear: “Forgive him. He was drunk. He treats us so well ”... And I forgive ... Memories are interrupted. P From now on I am 13 ... we go downhill. The sun hits my eyes. I laugh out loud when he catches me. I feel happy. I love him ... I don't remember how it happened. I only remember the result. He is God to me. I love the smell of his cologne, the smell of his cigars, he is the smartest, the most delicious. I love ironing his shirts, I catch his eyes like a dog ... He gives me the first gold jewelry, beautiful clothes, perfume ... He also gives my mother. We both get the same gifts. The little sister grows up as an ordinary child ... Memories are cut off ... M not 22. I drink beer with a girlfriend in a half-empty apartment and roar. Roar from shock. How could I forget all that ??? How could mom forget everything? Or not to see? Encourage? ... Then I just left home. A few years later, the marriage of mom and stepfather fell apart, he left to live in another city. And I decided to talk with my mother. I then asked her only one question: "For what?" She said: “Well, why are you dramatizing. It was the 90s, I needed support. And he treated you so well, helped us, paid for your studies. " Curtain. Mom, I don't respect you. I hate you". Story number 6. Old man

"P Ismo a girl - beautiful, bright, cheerful, talented, successful ", - from letters to Sveta.

P After reading all the stories, I decided to write to you. There were also cases in my childhood. M I was not about 5-6 years old, maybe even less, since I went to kindergarten. Not all childhood memories remain in my memory, but I will never forget it. At some point, it pops up before my eyes. Once I got very sick, the otitis media did not go away, my parents decided to be admitted to the hospital. Village hospital, adults and children interspersed. P Omnyu, adult uncles taught me to read, I really liked it. Were there women in the hospital? I don’t remember the doctors at all. V In the evening, the older generation gathered in the hall, someone reads newspapers, someone played chess. I was very bored alone, and I often went there. I AM I knew a lot of poems, like all children in Soviet times. And every time I was asked to read it, I was very glad that adults pay attention to me and, standing in the middle of the hall, read poetry to applause.

AND Once one old man with a cane says: girl, I have become quite old and I can't hear, come closer, sit on your knees and read a rhyme to me. I went up joyfully, sat down on my grandfather's knees and began to read poetry, and suddenly the old man got into my panties and began to touch there. I don't remember what happened later, apparently I left.

N but in the following days I refused to read the rhymes, the grandmothers asked, almost forced me, I didn’t. I was very scared, I knew it was not normal. T from the old man was persistent, he kept asking to sit down on his knees, and then the grandmother, sitting next to him, said: "How is it that you, Lenin's granddaughter, do not respect sick old people and refuse?" I refused to sit on my knees and told my grandmother that that grandfather was touching my panties. She did not believe it and made her do it. D With his left hand he held me by the waist, with his other hand he reached under the dress so that it was not noticeable. P After reading the poems, I got down and ran to my grandmother and said that it happened again, but she didn’t believe it, she said, didn’t see anything. She scolded me for lying and said that this is the biggest sin. P After that, I never left the ward and begged that my mother would take me away from here.

H After a few days my mother came, I tried to say that there was a very bad old man, but she did not understand anything or, if she did, she chose to do nothing. I remember my despair and the cry of my heart, I literally screamed to myself. Then, in adulthood, I told her about this incident and reproached her for not doing anything then. She was silent ...

P the donkey in me something has changed, I have become different. It is true that such children become more sexually preoccupied at the wrong age, and that was how it was. Now the problems with my daughter are on the same basis, and I cannot talk to her on this topic. I can’t find the strength, because it’s disgusting for me. I literally copy my mother. I feel that I am losing touch with her, even if I have not lost it already. I don’t know what to do. Now, after reading and supporting me, I decided to talk to her, what is wrong. "

Spa life

Part one

If it falls to be born in the empire, it is better to live in a remote province by the sea. Approximately such lines came to my mind when we got off the bus. The village was a typical example of a remote province by local standards. Well, considering what exactly is considered the wilderness on the Black Sea coast. A small village in which every barn in the summer is rented out to people who have come in large numbers from the more northern regions of their homeland. Father grabbed the suitcases and led us in the direction of the sea, easily identifiable by smell. Somewhere there we were already waiting for "Great house, next to the beach, and inexpensive!", Which someone from my acquaintances had recommended to my father. So we drove, having previously phoned the owners and knowing exactly where we would live.

They were waiting for us. The hostess, a very old granny, showed us a hefty shed with windows at the far end of the yard, almost hidden by overgrown bushes:

Won. ... Tama you will live ... Just do not confuse - your door is on the left.

On closer inspection, the barn was clearly dual-use. I mean, it was halved in half, um. ... apartments. Ours had one large room with three beds - my sister and I were one at a time and my parents were large, with a wardrobe and bedside tables, a small hallway, because of the presence of a table and electric stove, a kitchen ... and that's it. I honestly expected more from the enthusiastic descriptions. The other half of the barn appeared to be exactly the same. As Grandma said, they already live there, but now they are on the beach.

We went to the beach too. Immediately the first inconvenience came to light - in order for my mother and sister to change clothes, my father and I were kicked out into the street.

Nothing, we'll come back - we'll open the closet across. - Dad promised - There will be at least some semblance of two rooms.

In general, this did not spoil the mood. The last time we were at sea, I don’t remember when. That time there was not enough time, then money ... This time everything turned out well, besides, Ritka and I finished school the next year - that is, the exam, admission and all that. In general, there will be no time for rest.

The beach, of course, also turned out to be rustic. Just a hundred meters long strip of sand overgrown with dead grass stretching along the sea. Along the edges, the coast rose, turning into a cliff, leaving a narrow rocky strip near the water, completely unsuitable for rest. True, there were enough people. About fifteen people sprawled on towels in different positions, exposing the sun to varying degrees of tanning of the body. A certain amount splashed in the water, which surprised me with its transparency. Well, yes, there is really no one to shit. Ritka and I, of course, plunged first. At this time, my mother and father arranged a bed for us, and then they replaced us in the water. I collapsed belly up and began to look at the surrounding people. Ritka did the same.

F-f-fuuu ... - she gave out after a while - Not a single decent guy!

And at home this is yours ... how is he ... Dimka seems ... decent or what?

Dimka, who had been hanging around his sister lately, did not arouse my sympathy.

Compare too ... At least better than some! - she poked me in the side with her fist.

I must say, contrary to the popular opinion about twins, Ritka and I were not particularly close. From a certain age, she began to have her own girlfriends and interests, I have my own company. So I knew little about Dimka and therefore did not argue.

Come on, move! Spread out here! - I heard the voice of my father.

She and my mother quietly approached, discovering that my sister and I had taken all the place prepared for four. Mom, with her hands on her hips, stood in front of me, expressing her indignation with all her appearance. Purely out of harm, I was in no hurry to make room for them, staring insolently at her, involuntarily assessing my mother's figure against the pale blue sky. The hair, gathered at the back of the head, revealed a beautiful neck, a heavy chest, supported by a swimsuit, protruded forward, a belly, rounded-convex, below it smoothly passed into the pubis hidden by panties. Further, the panties in a wide strip went between the legs, preventing the hips from closing at the very top, but below the plump hips were in contact with each other, tapering to the knees and passing into beautiful ankles. I thought about Ritka - it turned out that, minus age, they were very similar. The proportions of the body, the demeanor ... Only Ritka's forms were much more modest, well, with age, they probably will appear. My father interrupted my thoughts, unceremoniously rolling my sister and me to the sides.

That's better! - the parents lay down between us, almost pushing us out onto the grass.

Well, okay! - Ritka jumped up. - Fed, let's go into the water!

In the evening we met our neighbors. The family turned out to be very similar to ours, even the son, Mishka, turned out to be approximately the same age as ours, but his sister Ira is a little older. Not much, for a year or two. Of course, no one began to find out the exact age. On the occasion of their acquaintance, a feast was arranged, to which the hostess was also invited. Granny readily agreed, taking part in a hefty bottle of her own wine. At the same time, another inhabitant of our yard, about whom we did not suspect, turned out to be at the table - the grandmother's granddaughters. The guy was traditionally sent here for the summer from childhood, and he was tired of it for a long time. However, having entered the institute, he had not been here for three years, and now he arrived, deciding to remember his youth. Now, judging by his appearance, he greatly regretted it.

We spent hardly an hour in the company of our ancestors. Then their talk about life in this heavenly place (according to some vacationers) or in this godforsaken hole (according to local residents) bored us. The young people moved to the grass near the fence, where, however, we also began to ask Oleg how he lives here. The granddaughter complained about life uncontrollably. As it turned out, before every year from people like him a warm company gathered here and it was fun. Now everyone has grown up, finished school and departed in all directions, categorically unwilling to return to their former life. This year, out of a company of ten people, only two of them turned out to be here - he and some other Igor. He was lured here by Oleg, himself driven by a fit of nostalgia and infecting his friend with it, for which he now listened to a lot of reproaches every day. In one word, melancholy. We sympathized loudly and nodded, agreeing with his every word, along the way trying to figure out what kind of entertainment there is.

Yes, no, in general ... I myself am suffering. Would you like to go swimming? he suggested. - Now is the time - the sun has set, the water is warm, there is no one on the beach ...

The sea really turned out to be warm. Having filled our fill, we made our way to the shore, shivering from the evening coolness.

It is necessary to squeeze the swimming trunks. And swimwear. - suggested Oleg. - Otherwise we'll freeze.

What, right here? - Ritka did not understand.

Well ... - Oleg understood what she wanted to say. - We are here, and you can over there, under the cliff. Nobody will see.

The specified cliff was at the edge of the beach.

Yeees...? - Irka peered into the darkness. - Is there no one there?

Nobody. Who could be there?

No, I'm afraid ...

Do you want me to go with you? - Oleg suggested.

Here's another! So that I would go with a stranger to a place where it’s already scary?

Ir, let's go Fedka with us? - suggested Ritka. “I know him.

Irka looked at me:

Let's go...

I was left at the very edge, ordered to turn away and never turn around, and they themselves walked a few steps further. I fought with myself for a long time, looking in the opposite direction from them, but then nevertheless turned to the sea, pretending to look at the waves lazily rolling onto the shore. Having squinted my eyes a little to the left, I discovered that the girls were undressing, turning their backs to me, and then I openly stared in their direction. They, bending down a little, diligently twisted the swimsuits. In the twilight, the girl's buttocks gleamed white, the thin Ritkins, it seems, did not even touch each other and the more rounded Irkins. Irka already had a tan mark. In addition, turning slightly sideways, she showed me her right chest. More precisely, only the shape of an unburned cone looking forward and downward. All attempts to discern what was between their legs failed - it was dark and far away. I did not admire for long - as soon as they began to dress, I accepted the original position.